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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Feb 20, 2018 19:04:45 GMT -8
Orion had not stopped thinking about a certain something since Nik's proposal during the Valentine's Day contest two weeks before. It was always at the corners of his mind, ebbing into the forefront only to dip back down again as he assured himself it would be fine. He just needed a good moment.
So, when he asked where he wanted to go for dinner, Orion suggested somewhere out in Sinclair. The train had made its weekly stop, and there were some great places to eat in the mall. That and Nik loved that indoor motorized train city, heh. Walking down the streets, eyeing the various shops and old places, he caught sight of it: that place they went to eat endless pancakes that first morning after they met. "Let's go there~!" And for as easy as pancakes were to make and as many other places that were available, he was pulling Nik up to it anyways.
Sitting down at a simple round table with two chairs facing each other and ordering a tall stack, Orion waited till the waitress had left before leaning over the table. "So…. I.. have been doing a lot of thinking on…. Getting married," he started off slow, holding Nik's gaze, sort of somber yet intense. "And… I realized it was… there was… something kind of bothering me." He held up a hand to have Nik wait to say or do anything.
Taking in a slow breath, Orion fished out a small box from his jacket. Shifting out of his chair and down on one knee, he grinned entirely too hard holding it up. "… I'm actually kinda pissed you stole my thunder on proposing…. " A weird laugh threatened and subsided. "But- Nikki- I…." Fuck. "Love you so much, and as much of a fuck up as I am you love me too and… Will you marry me?" And damn if that wasn't a cheesy, weak smile for you.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Feb 20, 2018 20:14:34 GMT -8
I'm sorry the timed proposal didn't come off like I'd hoped. Nik had thought these words a lot. If you want I can propose again, they thought. Of if you want you can propose and I swear I'll act super surprised. They very much actively planned to say these things, if not right after the contest then some time after they got home that night. But it had been such a long day and they figured Orion needed time to rest and process. Maybe in a day or two the unintended sting would have subsided and they could talk about it more.
But three days passed and they hadn't really talked more about wedding ideas or anything, so Nik assumed Orion still just needed time to think, and didn't want to rush him. They could have guessed he had something on his mind or was trying to avoid certain thoughts or both, but could not have pegged one thought in particular as what was keeping him quiet about it.
Five days passed, and Nik decided to try his luck. "Hey... been meaning to s--" mmf?? O-oh it seemed Orion was feeling very affectionate that night, well okay it could wait.
And before they knew it, two weeks had passed, and the sense of 'need to say that eventually' had largely dulled. Nik hadn't even thought about it today, but was thrilled by the outing to Sinclair. Eeee, they hadn't been in at least a few weeks~! Hello baby did you miss them they missed you, good and precious train♥
Oh hey, was that the restaurant from--? Nik was certain it was! "Awww~!" they exclaimed as Orion suggested it, then leaned over to kiss his cheek as they walked.
But then they got seated and... Oh, he looked.. kind of serious? Something kind of bothering me. ... Oh no... Nik's first thought was of Marceline, and even if logically they knew there was no way Orion was that close to her yet (or they sure as hell hoped not??), the idea that he might want full freedom in that relationship in exchange for allowing Nik the same with Mia did come to mind, and Nik was not ready to deal with those feelings yet. (Maybe they ever would be if Marceline had ever made the slightest effort to reach out to them or make them feel the slightest bit respected as a person rather than just vaguely acknowledged as an attachment of Orion but hey if Nik had to ask for that then she'd only be doing it because they said so and it would lose all meaning anyway so. 8'))))) There was that.)
But in all that fear and panic, Nik definitely was not ready for Orion producing a box, and for about two seconds their brain scrambled to put together what was happening despite how incredibly obvious it should have been.
As their eyes set on that ring, they felt suddenly mesmerized. H---holy shit that was gorgeous. A hand briefly raised slightly, and fingers curled in as if to grab it, though their hand was nowhere near close enough to do so. They paused rather than reaching out.
Their face was quickly darkening, and their mind was torn somewhere between, fuck I knew it I called this shit and but this is so so SO much better than if I'd have prompted it EEEEEEEE???
However, within two or three seconds of Orion's question, Nik had more or less finished processing it, at least enough to think clearly. And as such, they placed both hands back in their lap and smiled softly, sweetly. In a calm and pleasant tone, they replied, "I dunno, I'll have to think about~"
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Feb 22, 2018 13:12:16 GMT -8
Orion's face had colored at some point in all of this but took on a deeper red after Nik spoke. Ah man, this had to have been something like what Nik had felt in the crowd, but this was so much more than he was ready for even as a joke (was it a joke?). A weird noise, not quite a laugh not quite a cough, reverberated passed his lips, and slowly, he ebbed up off one knee, closing the box. "Take all the time you need~" he answered tapping his chin with the box. "But you're not allowed to double propose, you know~" Just… in case that was what Nik was planning, heh.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Feb 23, 2018 15:14:48 GMT -8
As the box snapped shut, Nik's smile was replaced with a more perplexed look. Take all the time you need~ ... SQUINT? Was Orion counter-trolling them or...? If not, Nik was almost insulted Orion didn't realize it was just meant to be an ass (or would have been insulted if they weren't so endeared by the idea of him genuinely being so patient and understanding ffff). ..... But if he was counter-trolling, it was working. >.> And Nik wanted that ring.
"Of course I will you dork, you already knew this." They stood and moved, reaching for the box. "Gimme that gorgeous ring dammit." (Should Orion offer any resistance in handing it over, Nik would wind up making a bunch of whiny 'neh!' noises as they kept trying.)
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Feb 23, 2018 16:23:01 GMT -8
The minute Nik spoke, Orion's features flicked up again. Ok, ok good, very good. He did, in fact, shift it around, playing keep away a couple of times to earn those whiny noises before clasping it in both hands. "Hold your hand out first," he mused playfully (and would keep up that keep away should Nik refuse). Shifting the box open after that, however, Orion pulled the ring from its case and slipped it up onto that perfect finger. Smirking a bit, he leaned forward kissing the adjacent knuckles rather fluidly "I love you," he muttered softly offering a small grin. "My beautiful fairy princess." Was he playing this up for the moment? Hell yeah he was.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Feb 26, 2018 19:19:45 GMT -8
When told to hold out their hand, Nik did in fact squint and make one more pronounced attempt to grab it just to be defiant, but then complied. They attempted to put on a huffy pouty face in the process, but very quickly lost the battle they were fighting to hold back a smile as Orion slipped the ring on, and they only half-suppressed a squeak when he kissed their hand.
Their free hand had already moved to loosely cover their mouth out of habit, but at beautiful fairy princess, they?? started tearing up?? Nik what you knew this already you prompted this you-- okay.
Suddenly, their arms were flung over his shoulders as they hugged him tightly, fiercely. "You're my everything," Nik all but whimpered, borderline shaking from how overwhelmed they suddenly felt.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Feb 26, 2018 19:48:43 GMT -8
Nik's reactions were the best. The way their hand had moved up, the way their face shifted, the look in their eyes, all of it was perfect and on point, and damn if he didn't have a camera to capture it. Orion opened his mouth, swore he was going to say something, but the sudden hug and whimper had him hugging back tightly. "I love you," he murmured more than a couple of times, slowly feeling down Nik's back. "So much."
He considered again the talks he'd had with Dad about this, how at first more things bothered him about Nik proposing, how it felt like a loss of power, and a loss of choice? And he allowed himself to be bitter about it for a bit, wrestling with those feelings and debating whether to confront Nik about them or not.
But then, Dad made a very simple observation. Does it outweigh everything else you feeling? For Nik? For their situation? For how happy and stable he'd felt in years if not a decade now? No, absolutely not. One instance that made him feel squeamish and uncomfortable, had made him feel very briefly trapped, was not going to do him in. He'd been trapped in his old life with less self-concern than he had now (and who was the one to wake him up to that? hah)
He thought about it, every which way and back, and yes he wanted to make Nik happy. This person who had shown more love and mercy to him than he could ever have asked for, this person who could relate to him in ways few could, this person who just got it so many and so much. He wanted to make this person happy as happy could get (and hell he was sure he'd be happy in the process).
Brain- brain why were you crying??? Could you??? Maybe??? Not??? Stop tearing up???? These feelings and this everything was so illogical and dumb, but there was a twinge of satisfaction to all of this, to everything he felt and thought about. Yeah, he loved this. Slowly easing back, Orion rested his forehead against Nik's. "I want to make this work," he spoke quietly, assuredly, his gaze locked on Nik's. "Dad suggested-- I try...... I mean... I…. want to try couple's counseling before getting married and…." No therapists rolled around in his brain so fiercely that he struggled to keep himself on track. "Think I may see about also just…. seeing a shrink too… I want… to be the best for you."
So that I don't ever… have to feel like I'm just a reaction again… He fought back this thought, knew well enough that this was the kind of bullshit that he wanted to deal with, but the irony of it all kind of stung either way, heh.
"You ok with that?"
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Feb 26, 2018 21:25:16 GMT -8
The restaurant was pretty empty overall, but one eavesdropping group a few tables down quietly clapped for the happy couple, and one may have uttered an 'awww'.
Nik could have melted into Orion, but as he spoke... Couple's counseling? Was there something wrong with the way they were? Something wrong with Nik? They frowned hesitantly, but Orion went on and...
Might start seeing a shrink too? Oh?? Be the best he could.... OH. Yeah that... Nik's smile slowly returned.
"Yes," they answered a bit emphatically. "I'd love that. I'm sure I can find some stuff to work on, too, and I want to do everything we can to make this marri-.. to make OUR LIFE the best it can be for you, too. <3"
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Feb 27, 2018 14:47:04 GMT -8
A breath Orion didn't even realize he was holding escaped from him. Ok good- Not that, in retrospect, he could find anything wrong with this request in of itself. That, plus the reassurance that Nik wanted to try too, was good, really good. A smaller, sillier grin pulled up onto Orion's features before he leaned forward and kissed them a couple of times very briefly, softly, before holding one longer deeper one.
Pulling back almost a little unwillingly, he smiled a bit softly after. "I… also want the day to be just us…." A weird breath drew in and out of him. "We can do other stuff later or even before then too but I really…. want you to myself for a day." Hopefully that would ease some of these nebulous feelings that still squirmed around, bundling together, and rising in his chest.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Feb 27, 2018 17:45:29 GMT -8
Mmm... It was hard to resist moaning into those kisses. As sweet as this was, bringing Nik to this place in particular, there was also some part of Nik greatly regretting that Orion had chosen to talk about this in public. Why couldn't they just--
As they pulled out of that final kiss, Nik noticed the waitress had approached with their drinks, and as she looked on awkwardly their face flushed deeply. The sudden self-consciousness was enough that it took them a moment to process what Orion had said. "I..." When did they get like this?? Where was the Nik that would have flipped off the waitress and overtly tongued Orion in front of everyone and laughed if they got kicked out? ...Given what part of their brain was suddenly greatly amused and vaguely tempted by this thought, probably still there somewhere. They just wanted to enjoy a nice day with the boyfriend and not ruin this nice moment, heh...
"Why don't we... move to a booth," Nik suggested. They gave the waitress a weak smile and tugged Orion into one of the seats after them, so they could sit down and still be touching.
Once the waitress set their drinks down (looking vaguely grateful) and left again, Nik finally properly recalled and processed what Orion had asked.. "About the wedding.." and actually found a vague sense of relief? Heh, didn't expect that but okay.
"Whatever you want babe," they answered. Wait that sounded apathetic. "Er.. Just us sounds nice. Like.. the big ridiculous party idea was always kind of... Loud and fun and 'fuck the system'." They flashed a brief hint of a grin. "Memorable for sure. But it also.. wouldn't feel as... serious, in a way..?" Maybe they should feel bad for thinking like that, but... heh... "I could enjoy either, but if you like the idea of focusing on just each other for the day more, then that's definitely what I want." They nodded once for emphasis.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Feb 27, 2018 18:27:56 GMT -8
It took entirely too long for Orion to cop to the waitress's presence, and even when he did so, embarrassment did not register immediately. Instead, he blinked a little slowly at Nik's suggestion but wouldn't protest as he was pulled into one, pressing up against Nik all the same.
He frowned a little as Nik mentioned again that it was whatever he wanted but… thankfully the explanation that came thereafter was solid enough. Yeah, a big bombastic party sounded fine in theory but… Aside from that…. "Yeah… I… Mia's cool and all but I still don't really know her or her girlfriend…." Which was fine in itself. He didn't want to be closer with either of them. "I'd just…" Fuck it. "Yeah, it'd be nicer individually and just getting you to myself~" An arm shifted around, pulling Nik closer. Lips moved and pressed against their cheek. "I'm…. thinking something a bit small and quiet. Just… the fam maybe even…" Heh. If he could legitimately convince Mom this was even happening for realsies apparently, but whatever.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Feb 28, 2018 10:30:12 GMT -8
Nik nodded at that initial explanation. Yeah.. They honestly still didn't know Vesta as well as they tried to. They'd talked to her and spent some time around her once in a while, mostly just... due to being at Mia's and Vesta having kind of moved in, but even then Nik was never totally comfortable around her and often made a point to go over while she was at work or out of town or otherwise not at home. It wasn't like they didn't like her or had much problem with Mia seeing her (other than wondering what she was seeing in her, heh..), they just... always kind of felt like she was judging them but oh well.
A smile reflexively tightened up into a wink as Orion's lips pressed against their cheek. "Mmmm~ It sounds nice..." They pulled their hot cocoa a bit closer to sip through the straw. "I haven't actually told my fam just yet..." they admitted.
Before Orion could take that the wrong way, though, "Figured mom would want all the details as soon as she heard, so I didn't wanna tell her until I had at least some o' those to give, heh~" And Dad and Ilya would just run straight to mom. Dasha... Nik hoped they didn't have to explain why they might want to wait just a bit to tell her, heh...
Their hand shifted to Orion's thigh to lightly squeeze, and they smirked lightly. "Ya know... Knowing it'll be just us and a smaller thing I'm half tempted to suggest we just elope like, today or tomorrow." Nik flashed a cheeky look. "But I think I wanna enjoy calling you my fiance for a while first~"
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Feb 28, 2018 13:23:38 GMT -8
Orion flinched slightly at Nik's words. O-oh yeah? Heh, was it supposed to be a secret or- Ah. Yeah, he guessed that made sense. As Nik leaned in to squeeze him, however, Orion rested his head against their shoulder. The small comment had him smirking a bit more, however. "You know fiancée is a nice gender neutral term~" Granted only in literal speech and not in writing, but he'd be saying it more than writing it anyways~
By that time the waitress had approached again, mumbling a bit about whether they had decided what they wanted to order yet or not. Orion's eyes finally dropped to the table, and only then did he fully register that there was, in fact, a menu or two there. "Ah it'll… be a bit," he answered back with a small grin. "Actually no never mind, the peanut butter short stack would be perfect."
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Mar 1, 2018 1:40:29 GMT -8
Hmmm~? Ooh, truuu-- or, wait heh. Writing was a thing, yeah. Still good though.
Oh hello again waitress whose eye contact Nik still wasn't comfortable making right now, heh. Hearing Orion's order, they piped in, "Make it two.. but add strawberries on mine." That sounded oddly good right now. ...And like a really pretentious PB&J when they thought about it but pff oh well.
Once she'd gone again, though, Nik's attention turned back to Orion and they leaned against him in a slowly pressing, mildly pestering way. "Though you knoooooow...~" Nudge nuzzle push. "Fianc[é]e only works out loud, but a better gender neutral term that works both ways is spouse~" ;P They chuckled slightly before easing up.
"Honestly, though, I'm totally down for husband or wife just as long as its preceded by yours~"
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Mar 2, 2018 14:37:26 GMT -8
Orion might have been annoyed if he wasn't equally pressing against Nik and maybe pressing around at their sides from the other side too. "You could also be-" Orion's lips pressed together almost immediately as he suppressed a laugh. "Actually not too sure you could be my human," he snickered softly shifting up a bit to tickle them unapologetically. "I love you." Easing up again, he snuggled against them again. "My cute wife." Oh that had a weirdly nice ring to it. He'd said 'husband' out loud a couple of times and less towards Nik, but man if he wasn't so damn gay that 'wife' was enough to elicit an almost surprised response from him. Pfffft. Whatever.
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