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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 8, 2017 5:58:52 GMT -8
Nik fought to keep his hand steady as Orion started to wince. "Sorry. Bony parts like this are gonna hurt; no getting around that." He tried to get through Working on Orion's wrist as soon as he could without sacrificing precision. That probably made it hurt a bit more, honestly, but at least it wouldn't last as long.
He stopped as the last was done, then swapped out the needle for a finer one and finished the more detailed work there quickly before moving to the rest of his arm. Only once he was back in a safer area would he let his thoughts move back to the conversation. So... What he was getting was Orion probably never stopped having feelings for him; circumstances just changed. That... wasn't really reassuring, heh...
Especially not... "...So uh... Hey. Just.. tell me if I'm way out of line or off the mark here, but listening to this..." Nik please don't throw up on the open wounds you were putting on your boyfriend's arm, get your stomach under control please and thank you. "Is Marcie.. kinda... like a weird hybrid of Carmina and Klaus...?" Hahahah he immediately didn't even want that answer and regretted asking but welp. "D-do you like her because she tells you 'good job'...?" Nik no you were supposed to be stopping talking not adding more.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 8, 2017 6:22:12 GMT -8
Ugh ow fuck. Orion was trying very hard not to make too many noises, but that hurt like hell. “Just— be careful…” he mumbled weakly. At least it was pretty quick after. The rest, he could deal with better, and the other hand he had gripped on the couch at some point would ease— for a few seconds before Nik spoke.
Ah, yeah that was every part of him tensing a bit wasn’t it? That was his breath shortening, twisting, and becoming harder to reclaim in his chest. He… had never put those two thoughts together, but poSSSIBLY? The way her warm demeanor rolled off her more manipulative nature was so Auntie and Klausian it kind of hurt all its own. Hah Klausian Kalosian… How had he not put that together until just now either? But also that constant reassurance, that sense of pride in his work even as a professional thug, all of that was so…. So much of what he wanted and needed and she provided that plus some.
Orion shifted a little in his seat. “I mean…. Kinda?” he finally ask-spoke. “More …. More Auntie than Klaus ….” Much, much, much more Auntie than Klaus, but still that part of her that was Klaus was so very Klaus. “But…kind of more than that, I’m—“ he paused drawing up the words carefully. “I’m not just her thug,” he finally decided on. “She doesn’t treat me as lesser— in any sense of the word. I’m just… just me with every fault and every little—“ He winced slightly at the needle’s movements. “Thing. And I’m not her sister’s kid that she’s obligated to look after…” He…. Did not imagine Auntie saw it that way at all, but it was always in the back of his mind. Marcus’s words still fucking hurt.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 8, 2017 6:33:16 GMT -8
Right... All right... Well, it was good to have this information. Mechanically, the little lines of the details continued. One scale, two scale, fish scale, you scale, heh... Ah-- whoops, he meant to be a little lighter along that smaller scar, sorry Rion.
He pulled away and set the needle down, dabbing the excess away again and holding it there for a little longer than necessary this time. Another question he didn't want the answer to, but this time it felt much more necessary to ask, to know. "...Do you ever feel like I treat you as 'lesser'...?" Not that he wouldn't understand Orion appreciating having two people that didn't, but.. he really wanted to fix it if he ever did.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 8, 2017 6:49:36 GMT -8
Ugh, he really probably shouldn’t have been having this conversation with Nik with a needle in his hand, heh. Oh well. Man, that was stinging. He winced a little both at the pressure and then at the question. He didn’t… want to answer it, not when there wasn’t a specific clear-cut case like there had been with Klaus at times. It was just… sometimes and overarching feeling, and he wasn’t even sure if it was Nik or him.
Lesser than Mia. Yes but Nik had moved in with him. They bought a house together. Nik had just had that spiel about Orion being good for him in a lot of ways and was the space to the sun but…. Hhhhhhh….
Hhhhhhhhh…….
Was that the only instance? His thoughts went back to being punched in the face when they had first met, but no that was a different situation entirely, wasn’t it? Clearly not if you’re thinking about it now… Shut up, Brain??? Shut the fuck up?? Even then Nik hadn’t like… just… completely thrown him away or anything and had been pretty generous with everything and … everything???
Was it all in his head? Ya know what fucking probably. A slow snort escaped from Orion. “Nah…” That was not a strong enough answer, and he only realized it after the fact.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 8, 2017 7:20:31 GMT -8
That answer was too weak, and took way too long besides.
Oh... That.. that hurt?? Nik was reflexively trying to smile in response but wow it hurt. His eyes shifted down to the artwork that had been slowly taking shape on Orion's arm. This labor of love that he'd practiced and refined so many times and picked up a new skill to be able to give to him entirely on his own, to have as much control as possible over every detail and so no one else's hands would have to cause him any degree of pain. This gift he was pouring so much into because he wanted this man to be able to look at his body and love what he saw as much as Nik did. And Orion really felt like Nik ever saw him as 'lesser'?
It's your own fault. And now he was assaulted with memories of griping at Orion every time he fucked up, telling him he was an idiot, sulking and trying to make him be the one to apologize when Nik already knew he felt bad and......... Wow I suck.
His fingers ran lightly over Orion's arm. His defensive logic insisted he was only trying to help. To make him a better person, to make sure their relationship could continue to prosper, to-- This shouldn't be so hard. Why can't you just get it right? Don't you even wanna be a good leader? Are you even trying? Why didn't you ask for help? Why didn't you just do that? Shouldn't this be obvious? ........ She's only trying to help, dear. She just wants you to get better.
Nik blinked away the tears suddenly threatening to form, and without warning stood and moved in front of Orion, climbing over his lap and grabbing handfuls of hair in both hands as he planted on brief but hard kiss. "I'm sorry," he breathed out in a whisper, then followed up with several more kisses only slightly more lingering and less rough than the first. "I'll work on that."
He knew he should get back to work but... Taking a deep breath, he leaned up to kiss Orion's forehead instead. "...Point of clarification, I really don't want you to go out and kill anyone..." he suddenly almost-laughed. "But.. I want you to feel like if you did, I'd be right here. ..Reasonably upset, but.. ready to help do whatever it took to stay with you first and foremost. ..I don't want you to think I have to love every action to take to still love every last drop of you..."
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 8, 2017 8:21:16 GMT -8
Orion’s eyes watered. He wanted to say something, anything, to assure Nik that it wasn’t a big thing, that it didn’t bother him, that hell, nothing bothered him. Instead, he watched Nik look up his arm and felt even worse. Fake it till you make it dumbass resounded in his head, and he wished to Arceus and back he could just be like that.
But suddenly Nik was standing up. Orion didn’t have time to process it before he was on his lap kissing him. The apology left him breathless. The assurance even more so. Both eyes closed at the forehead kiss, and his heart twisted up in his ears whispering excitedly. And fuck him he was crying abet quietly. Resting his face against his chest, he took slow, shaky breaths. “Even if I go back to jail please… please stay by my side… please don’t let me go….” His voice came out in weak, strained, raspy whispers shaking with every utterance. “And bring me my damn fish…” A shaky, weird laugh escaped from him, and his head was shifting a bit against Nik’s chest.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 8, 2017 11:33:34 GMT -8
Of course. Of course, he would always-- Nik jerked slightly for how hard he snort-laughed at the end. "Definitely." He clung a bit tighter, stroking and raking his fingers through Orion's hair, loosely brushing it out as he pet him. "If I have any say, you'll never go back..." he assured him softly. Both in that he hoped he could find ways to more gently encourage legal activity and that if Orion did get caught in something Nik would fight to keep him free.
"But if anything were to happen and I couldn't stop it..." He shifted a bit, and tilted Orion's face back up to kiss his lips more tenderly. "I'd bring Mr. Fish every time. ...Maybe almost-every if we got some conjugal visits~" He smirked and winked briefly before going back to serious reassurance. "And I'd rotate your other fish. I'd visit every week and more if they let me." A few light but lingering kisses were places all over his face.
Afterward, he turned, his left hand shifting down only slightly to Orion's right shoulder, while he trailed his right hand fingers down Orion's arm and across his palm until they could lace between his fingers on his left hand. He squeezed, feeling the resistance of his ring. "This marks you as mine, you know... Sun or rain or sand or jail, I will fight to cling to what's mine."
Nik shifted around without letting go of that hand, turning more that way so he wound up sitting on Orion's lap rather than straddling him, leaning sideways against him. "I don't need you to be perfect..." he said just above a whisper. "I just need you to show me you love me. Don't stop doing that, and you'll never lose me."
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 8, 2017 14:13:58 GMT -8
Orion felt shaken up. Every part of him was squirming with ill-defined emotions. He still remembered the first day that passed that Mom’s routine broke, and she stopped showing up to meet him in prison. He remembered when Dad’s visits became less frequent and far more irregular. He remembered being told by Marcus and Azz that he wasn’t going to be allowed to see their kids, not like this. Not when he was like this.
It hurt, and he wanted desperately to let go of these feelings, but here they were clawing into him all the same. Visit every week and more if they’d let me… He didn’t know if he could believe it. Even if he wanted to, some part of him twisted with a sense of pained doubt. He’d never be sure until it happened, but Nik’s reassurance was enough for the moment at least.
A soft sigh slowly escaped from Orion, and he shifted a little as Nik did so. That comfortable sit had him kind of resting against Nik as much as Nik rested against him. “I love you,” he mumbled back kissing Nik a couple times in rapid succession. “So much….” He could not emphasize this enough.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 8, 2017 16:15:28 GMT -8
Nik readily soaked up the kisses, beaming softly. "I love you." He nuzzled against him. Debating but... he felt cozy enough right now...
"Storm.. really messed me up. I mean I'm glad we're on better terms now but... All that time I spent just... kind of assuming I'd be married by 21..." The number of wrenches thrown in that plan were almost hilarious looking back, ha... Traumatic, but via the magic of humor-coping still hilarious. "I'm so skittish now of getting invested and having my expectations fucked over again, and at the same time I can't help but worry that I'm.. overcompensating, I guess? Like always wondering if any 'I wanna get married' feelings I have are just because or at least enhanced by the fact that I expected to be married by now for so long..." ...Heh. He guessed, in fairness, it was actually more mom than Storm to blame for that, or maybe mom's parents or the whole noble system or... heh. Easier to stick with Storm though.
"If I didn't have those doubts in the back of my mind, though, I wanna say..." his hand shifted to spin Orion's ring. "That wouldn't be a promise ring...~" He still... felt similarly about Mia but... that wasn't the point he wanted to make right now, heh. Orion knew; Nik knew he knew. Emphasizing it would have just felt like.. adding a big asterisk to his I love yous and that wasn't what he wanted. He just wanted Orion to know-- to feel-- the depth of these feelings, regardless what others might exist alongside them.
"I might doubt that things can really stay this good, but I don't want you to doubt that I wanna spend my life with you." He... should probably stop being such a sap and get back to work, but... ahh, he was so comfy. Just a little more.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 8, 2017 16:54:01 GMT -8
Listening as Nik told his tale, Orion frowned softly. Trying to imagine what Storm was like aside from General Stormmrunner leader of the noble backlash against the rebellion was always hard to imagine. If that was any actual insight, however, then heh yeah no. He might have said something about that, but Nik had moved on, and these thoughts quickly dropped off.
Lips twitched at Nik’s choice of words before settling into a smallish smile. Oh really… Thinking back to the feelings that had welled up when he had seen the ring, Orion felt his features warm some. Nik’s final assessment had a soft chuckle escaping form Orion, one that welled up and had him leaning forward kissing Nik’s cheek, jawline, chin, lips. “Good to know,” he finally breathed.
For a bit, Orion settled pretty content with his boyfriend right there all cozy and comfy. Still, he would find the muscles in his arms were starting to twitch a little, and he was quickly becoming restless from that weird throbbing it was doing. “Wish I could just take my arm off,” he muttered with half-laugh.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 8, 2017 17:20:45 GMT -8
Nik hummed contently, returned those kisses, and was just very happy with life. But at Orion's final comment, he mildly lurched forward and slapped a hand to his mouth too late to stifle a hard laugh. "I'm pretty sure Mia would recommend against that." Oh Arceus oh no he shouldn't be laughing this hard, this was terrible and grim, but here he was. The worst part was he was honestly pretty sure Mia would be proud even if maybe a little torn about it. (Nik do NOT make a pun about 'torn' thank you.)
"L-let me just... get back to that so I don't keep you here all night." Just as soon as he got over this fit of laughter, he swore it would be soon. Getting up, Nik offered. "If you wanna get up and stretch a minute go ahead." Ah he.. should go grab a fresh drink and maybe the whole roll of paper towels, he was going through them faster than expected. Yeah. Yeah that'd give him a minute to settle down, hahaha.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 8, 2017 18:10:25 GMT -8
A very devious look did jump to Orion’s features as Nik laughed, and it broke into a wild grin as he spoke. “Last I checked she was disarmed though,” he snickered. “I think maybe she could use a hand.” Ok, ok no stop this was terrible and great and wait what do you mean great, brain stop. Or maybe just a round of applause. Ok.
As the laughter subsided, however, Orion would stand up and stretch slowly, feeling every muscle slowly extend. Arceus fuck his forearm hurt, but he was pretty sure his back still hurt more heh. Once Nik came back, however, he’d sit down again situation his arm again. “Though you know you can keep me up all night if you want, he mused as an after thought. There was a pause, however, as a thought hit him. "Or I guess it'd be me keeping you up." Since ahahahahah what the heck was sleep anyways?
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 8, 2017 18:45:49 GMT -8
Nik snort-laughed a bit as he settled back in. "Both," he answered, positioning Orion's arm again and turning the machine back on. "Both is good. But I don't wanna be up all night on just this anyway." Well yeah that was clear at this point but heh.
He'd continue with lighter conversation as he finished up the finer outlines, then... Hm. Just turning Orion's arm only actually shifted it a little given how arms worked, huh. Ah... He'd have Orion lie down on the couch and moved the coffee table so he could prop his arm there on it while Nik shifted to sitting in the floor to start the lines on the back side. That was better.
The lines went quickly enough from there, a little less detail on this side along with less scarring to deal with, and before long-- or at least what felt before long-- Nik was pretty sure he was done with the line work, barring perhaps small touch-ups if he noticed anything along the way while coloring. Turning the machine off for a moment to swap to the color needle(s? brush almost? He wasn't actually sure what to call it, just how to use it, ha), he asked, "How's that looking so far? Got a preference on whether I color this side or sit back up for the front side first?" The various fish and eels and emo aesthetic intertwining around his arm almost seemed cooler in his head, and now Nik found himself hoping the design was Good Enough after all, but... heh. His brain would do this no matter what, huh? It had to be better than scars.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 8, 2017 19:01:50 GMT -8
Orion put up with everything as best he could. He moved where Nik needed him to and just tried to keep focus on the conversation rather than the occasional pain that came with that needle. Certain areas were more sensitive than others, but once the lines were done up, he sorta deflated for a moment.
A yellow eye flickered over to the line work, and he slowly shifted his arm up to get a better look at it. “Looks good,” Orion answered resting his arm back down again. “This side first, then I’ll sit up again.” Cause maybe he was more comfortable just laying down in general, heh. That and… it was gonna hurt no matter what, so might as well get one side stinging at all once, right? Heh.
Once that was going, however, Orion would indeed feel the difference between the color and the lines. Shit fuck. He wished he’d remembered this exact pain when he sat through his back tattoos, but some part of him remembered he’d been at least partially drunk through that, and the ones on his earlobes were simpler dark symbols that could just be done by the single needle. Hhhhhh…
Heh actually— “Ya know it’s a miracle my other tats didn’t come out stupid,” he half-huffed half-laughed. “I was drunk through parts and pieces of my back and pretty damn high when I got my earlobes done up… Knowing my luck I could just as easily have ended up with a ‘fuck me’ in Times New Roman on the side of my neck or someshit.”
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 8, 2017 19:17:51 GMT -8
"Yeah?" Nik snorted at Orion's example, and then... Oh, he couldn't help himself. He set the needle down and leaned in, brushing his hair aside and craning as if looking at the back of his neck. "Oh hey, I'll be damned. How did I never notice that before?"
He'd let Orion react for at least 5 seconds or more before finally laughing. "Nah you're good." He ruffled Orion's hair, making sure to make it an extra floofed and tangled mess, before settling back in. Oh did he knock his glasses a bit skewed there, too? Ehehe whoops oh well. x3
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