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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 3, 2017 11:25:23 GMT -8
The sound that Luke made startled Jazz a bit. What had that even been? Was Luke hurt? Did the Nihilego hurt him? The stuttered response seemed to prove otherwise though and Jazz felt himself relax a bit. What's wrong with me? Why was it so hard to talk? Luke was worried now, so why couldn't he just explain? He wanted to, but it seemed emotions were getting in the way yet again. It would be a while before Jazz could manage to get past the knot in his throat. He was still scared, but Luke was still here... Even fused with the Nihilego, it was clear that Luke was still himself. That fact helped more than anything else. "I... don't deserve you,"Jazz finally managed, his voice little more than a whisper, "I-is it wrong? To hope? I'm trying not to, I'm trying but..." he continued, shaking his head as another shaky breath was taken. What's wrong with me? Luke had just said the very words he'd longed to hear for all these years and now... "S-sorry... 'm pathetic,"Jazz murmured, roughly wiping the tears away. These feelings still didn't make sense. Beyond fear, it felt hard to breathe and yet... like he was flying at the same time. How was that even possible?
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Pokémon League
Professor of Botany
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Post by Luke Indigo on Nov 3, 2017 11:38:49 GMT -8
Every second that Jazz didn’t readily answer was another one that Luke spent fumbling with words. What finally spilled form Jazz’s lips, however, had him stopping. Lips pressed together in a fine line, and his brows furrowed some. The questions followed by the apology just…. Ugh suddenly he was frustrated again? Frustrated at …. Everything all at once, and he had no words for it. The Nihilgo didn’t know what to do either but was about to make a suggestion when Luke moved of his own accord.
Shifting around to stand in front of Jazz, Luke extended both arms, grabbed him around the shoulders, held him to his chest. This was… only feasible with how low the bed was, but he was making it anyway. “Jazz, that is exactly what I’m talking about,” he huffed loudly but wasn’t ready to let go just yet. “Stop being so damn self-depreciative.”
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 3, 2017 12:00:15 GMT -8
Jazz didn't know what he'd expected Luke to say or do after he'd managed to speak, to explain at least in part why he'd started crying. It was a lot more difficult then he'd expected but, at least he'd tried. Then Luke stood and Jazz found himself fighting back another sob. Of course... he knew it was too good to be true. Luke was going to leave and-... When Jazz's shoulders were grabbed and then pulled forward towards Luke's chest, he was stunned. Luke hadn't left and... and now he was getting scolded. Dammit. Luke was right. It was so easy to insult himself, to blame himself when he didn't understand something. Jazz still didn't understand exactly what he was feeling but... but Luke didn't like it when he called himself pathetic. He felt pathetic. Who would start crying when your crush told you exactly what you wanted to hear? It didn't make sense and yet... and yet. No, hadn't he said he'd wanted to try to change? Luke wanted him to, so he had to try. "S-sorry... I-..."Jazz started, biting his lip when he realized he'd been about to insult himself again, "I-... I'll try. I will, I want to," he continued, taking a shaky breath before continuing. "I just... I feel pathetic. You just told me what I've wanted to hear for s-so long. And I-... I start crying, a-and questioning. Who does that? I... I don't know what's wrong with me,."
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Professor of Botany
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Post by Luke Indigo on Nov 3, 2017 12:10:29 GMT -8
Without the Nihilego’s strength, reassurance, and steadiness, Luke might have been trembling. He felt… so frustrated in ways he couldn’t begin to describe. Frustrated with Jazz… The Nihilego was learning or… at least trying to. It had not forgotten Luke’s yelling nor had it forgotten Jazz’s reaction to it, the feelings of turmoil. These creatures had such a wide array of feelings and emotions that it didn’t quite know what to do. But… but it could listen, could understand in time.
As Jazz finally spoke again, Luke shifted a little so he could be more audible. I will try, I will, I want to. A slow, exhausted breath escaped from Luke. I just feel pathetic. Luke could understand the feelings, could understand the reaction to a degree. He knew… that feelings were not always logical. And also… A small, weird laugh escaped from Luke unexpectedly. “Plenty of people cry with happiness, Jazz,” he huffed once. “Plenty of people cry for reasons that don’t make sense too. Nothing’s wrong with you.” A hand shifted and pinched the side of Jazz’s cheek lightly and pulled it. “So quit saying that too.” He’d let go half a second later.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 3, 2017 12:58:18 GMT -8
Hearing Luke laugh wasn't what Jazz had expected to hear. Had they said something wrong? Did he do something wrong again? Luke's answer though, the way he explained that people can cry from happiness... was that what this was? Was it because he was happy? Then Luke continued to explain that there were other reasons to cry. Jazz knew that, he could remember the time he'd cried because he'd been angry at Orion. Well, that and a number of other things but... still. Then Luke said that there wasn't anything wrong with him. Was... was it ok to be like this then? To be broken? No, no. He wasn't broken just because he didn't understand what was going on. But... Luke wanted him to stop saying that there was something wrong with him. Was that even possible? Still, the pinch had Jazz smiling a little despite himself. If allowed, he'd pull back just enough and then... on impulse he kissed Luke's cheek, lingering there for a little longer than necessary. "I'm... not sure I can promise that,"Jazz admitted, smirking a bit, "There's... still a lot of things I don't understand. Like... how this even happened and I-... I don't feel like I'm good enough for you. After all the shit I've put you through," he continued, taking a shaky breath. This was...this was ok, right? It was allowed? Arceus, if he just alienated Luke because of that... no, no... don't think the worst, it was ok...
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Professor of Botany
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Post by Luke Indigo on Nov 3, 2017 13:20:47 GMT -8
As Jazz smiled, Luke smiled a little back. The sudden kiss to the cheek, however, had warmth touching him. The Nihilego too seemed to fidget up very briefly on his facial skin before relaxing again. It already knew what a kiss was but— it was still such a strange feeling? A hand reached up and cupped Luke’s cheek briefly, though whether it was his own doing or the Nihilego’s, he honestly didn’t know.
A small roll of eyes was given at Jazz’s words. “That’s what I mean when I said neither of us is ready for any kind of relationship,’ he restated flatly briefly prodding between Jazz’s eyes. “Thinks are too volatile as they are now. You have growing to do, and I have growing to do. And that’s fine.” He took in a deeper breath than was necessary before exhaling again. “But I understand your feelings, and I want you to understand mine in time. That’s it. We good there? ”
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 3, 2017 20:08:20 GMT -8
Seeing Luke blush had Jazz grinning more. He liked seeing that, a lot and part of him wished he could get that reaction more often but... No, no... he shouldn't press his luck, not right now. Still, it had been rather cute to see Luke's features warm like that. Jazz would've said or done something more but then Luke started talking, even rolling his eyes. The next words he heard were reassuring to say the least of things. As much as it kind of stung to hear Luke say that neither of them were ready for a relationship, he was right. Honestly, the thought of commitment, even to Luke, still scared Jazz. It would... take a while before he was ready, and even then... it was hard to say if he would be able to stop putting himself down all the time. The poke had Jazz squeaking a little unexpectedly. Still, the explanation helped him to relax a little more. So that's what he meant... They both needed time to grow, to adjust to what had just happened. Even though Jazz felt so much better as a guy now, it was still an adjustment. Luke's last request had Jazz smiling again, reaching up to ruffle Luke's hair a bit. "Yeah, man, we're good,"Jazz murmured softly, perhaps a bit more warmly than before, "I... still find it hard to believe. Are you sure this isn't a dream?" he continued, smirking a bit before reaching over and giving Luke's hand a squeeze.
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Post by Luke Indigo on Nov 4, 2017 14:49:45 GMT -8
A small snort escaped from Luke as Jazz mushed his hair. The prehensile strands shifted a little, reaching up to clasp Jazz’s hand briefly before letting go again, setting on his shoulders once more. The question had a small roll of eyes and a shake of head. “No, we really did get attacked by an extra dimensional jelly fish that nearly turned you into a fighting machine and got me locked into months’ worth of research,” he answered. Nihilego might have swayed in distress against his skin had it not been able to feel the humor behind his thoughts. Luke was taking everything lighter now, or rather, about as light as he could be all things considered.
“Speaking of which…” he Luke mumbled shifting away a bit now. “I am going to be changing my research for a while… I’ve… already talked to the League about it but…yeah…” A hand reached up, and he felt over his skin slowly aware of how the density had shifted since he’d fused with the Nihilego. “The shop downstairs will remain open, but I may be doing some extra traveling depending on where the science leads me.” He had to know, had to learn, had to do something to get the Nihilego home. He’d promised.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 4, 2017 23:55:33 GMT -8
The way the strands of hair reached up to clasp Jazz's hand would take some getting used to, that was for sure. Still, it was nice to see Luke joke about it, like being attacked by an alien jellyfish was just another walk in the park. Despite himself, Jazz couldn't help but flinch a little at the mention of being turned into a fighting machine. Right... if that was what he turned into because of what he had wanted... Wait, no. Luke doesn't want you to insult yourself so stop it brain. Pushing the thought aside, Jazz ran a hand through his hair as Luke continued. Whatever Luke had talked about with the League... it... didn't sound like it had gone well. Taking Luke's hand, Jazz gave it a gentle squeeze, trying to be encouraging or soothing. Whatever Luke needed right then. The news about travelling more had Jazz grinning, maybe this could be a good way to catch up or find some more cool things like the switchroot. Whatever the case, Jazz wanted to be there for him just like Luke had always been there. Maybe it was wrong but... it felt like Jazz owed Luke that much at the very least. "And all it took to get you out of the lab more was fusing with an alien jellyfish,"Jazz replied, his tone practically dripping with sarcasm. If it wasn't obvious he was teasing, the mischievous smirk certainly was a dead giveaway. "I could go with you. I mean, I know that the Nihilego basically made you Super Luke but I think it'd be neat. My job is free lance enough I'm not especially tied to it. Besides, we're in this mess together, right?" Jazz explained, hoping that Luke would agree. It would be so cool to help him with this new science thing. And well, at the same time it would let Jazz keep an eye on the Nihilego. He still didn't trust it, and if it was going to be fused with Luke the sooner they found a solution to this, the sooner he could have Luke back to himself. Did that sound too selfish? Maybe. Did he care? Nope.
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Post by Luke Indigo on Nov 5, 2017 6:51:46 GMT -8
The small hand squeeze was enough to pull something of a smile onto Luke’s features if only for a moment. Several hours of alarm and worry on the phone was not a good start to research, but hopefully when he saw them in person, it would be better? Little did Luke realize the minute he walked through the League doors the next day, he’d be yelled at in ways he’d never been— among other things. For now, he could have the semblance of hope that he’d achieved an understanding. Nihilego swayed a little, causing Luke’s hair to shift some of its own accord.
A sudden, unexpected laugh broke from Luke at Jazz’s choice of response. Even the Nihilego ‘laughed’ in their shared mind space if only in response to Luke’s. Super Luke— Luke was chuckling a little weaker at that. He was stronger, maybe not super human but stronger still. How much more the Nihilego had blessed upon him, Luke wouldn’t know for some time. Both eyes shifted back to Jazz, and a small smile did pull at the corners of his mouth. “I am going to need your engineering expertise, Jazz,” he admitted. “If you’re willing to help me.”
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 5, 2017 12:21:24 GMT -8
Seeing Luke's smile was nice. After how chaotic and hectic this day had been, it was nice to see that they could still smile and be normal... if that was even possible. His reaction to being called 'Super Luke' was perfect though, and Jazz found himself chuckling along with him. What could he say? Laughter was contagious. When Luke spoke again, Jazz couldn't help but laugh. Had... had Luke really just asked him that? Of course he was willing to help! If anything, it would be amazing to work alongside Luke. It took a little bit for Jazz to stop laughing and almost instantly regret it. Ow, that hurt. Arceus, it felt like something had stomped on his ribs. Flinching a little, Jazz smiled at Luke and poked him in between the eyes. "Did you really just asked me that?"Jazz teased, smirking a bit more, "Of course I'm willing to help you. Hell, I'd even quit my job if it meant getting to work alongside you,"he continued excitedly, eyes sparkling with delight. The fact that Luke actually needed his help with something he was good at was almost beyond belief. As much as Jazz enjoyed helping with the plants and other work in the lab, it wasn't what he was especially good at and there were times he worried he was doing more harm than good. This was different though, this was something Jazz was confident in and he couldn't wait to see exactly what Luke had in mind for him to do.
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Professor of Botany
Any trainer that can't afford medicine can come to me. |
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Post by Luke Indigo on Nov 5, 2017 13:41:33 GMT -8
A grimace pulled at the corners of Luke’s mouth as Jazz flinched. Ah, right… He could… help once he got better, yeah. Luke had been about to say as much when the poke between his eyes had him stopping short. The words that came after that … “Ah… heh…” he mumbled softly reaching to mush his hair a bit. “You don’t.. have to quit your job or anything but…”
Kiss him. Nihilego what the fuck.
Warmth touched Luke’s features, and suddenly he was sputtering flustered. “I mean … I can’t say this’ll pay in the long run and it may not be economically sound for anyone but I really need to do this for the Nihilego and …” Reaching up, he rubbed the side of his face. “I just… thanks, Jazz.”
There was a pause, and that hand trembled very briefly before lowering, clasping Jazz’s shoulder lightly, pulling him just enough. The kiss was brief, simple, yet earnest enough, and Luke sat back pretty quickly. Warmth still had yet to recede from his features, but…. There, Nihilego, you happy?
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 5, 2017 14:22:05 GMT -8
Jazz just couldn't stop grinning even after Luke said he didn't have to quit his job. It didn't really matter if it didn't pay, the only thing that mattered was the chance to work with Luke. How could he say no? Who cared if he had to quit his job? There were other engineers that could take his place after all. Working on Sinclair was really fun though... but there was no way it took precedence over Luke. He was about to say something when Luke continued and... why was he blushing? Nothing he'd said seemed like a good reason to be flustered. Was he just concerned about what might happen if he Jazz did quit? "Hey man, it's ok. I won't really quit my job... probably. I mean, I'd love to work with you so much,"Jazz explained, smirking a bit as Luke thanked him. He'd been about to say something more when Luke set a hand on his shoulder and pulled him closer. The question on Jazz's face was obvious enough but the following kiss was... surprising to say the least and now it was Jazz's face that felt like it was on fire. A strangled sort of squeaking sound was all that escaped him before a hand raised to his lips. Had... that really just happened? But, it didn't make sense. Luke had said that they weren't ready for a relationship. Don't tease me... He wouldn't do that... would he? "Wh-..."Jazz started only to bite his lip as tears filled his eyes. What the hell? Tears, why. He couldn't stop smiling and yet there was this again. His chest was doing that weird thing again where it almost hurt to breathe but it was like he was flying. This doesn't make sense. "I thought-..."Jazz tried again, shaking his head. There was no use, his brain was just too scrambled to even form the simplest sentence.
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Post by Luke Indigo on Nov 5, 2017 16:49:02 GMT -8
Luke’s gaze evaded Jazz’s. His features refused to cool now, his pulse remained elevated. Good job. Nihilego really did you have to just. “S-sorry,” he stuttered out, not really gauging Jazz’s responses or his expressions. “I just….it welled up inside and the Nihilego and….” He reached up rubbing his own face, pressing fingers to his own lips.
“S-s-sorry I just…I did… I just… that was I did—” ‘Didn’t know what came over me’ wasn’t a correct statement. He knew very well what had happened, what feelings were there, and why he had gone with the Nihilego’s impulse. Both hands reached up setting on either side of Luke’s face as he willed it to cool. It would not cool, however. “I just kind of want to be affection is all,” he admitted in a slur of words not quite making total sense to even his own ears.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 5, 2017 17:34:11 GMT -8
Even as Jazz tried to find some way to explain what just happened, to figure out why Luke had just kissed him, nothing seemed to come to mind. The apology had him looking back up at Luke, wondering now if he regretted the kiss. Then the stammered words came next and it seemed the Nihilego was blamed for it. Jazz... didn't exactly know how to take that. He still remembered how it felt to be with the Nihilego, how all his desires were enhanced to a ridiculous degree. Was that what had happened? When Luke continued to stammer in a failed attempt of an explanation, Jazz smiled warmly at him. It was cute, the way he so desperately tried to explain away what had happened. Luke's blushing features were just so adorable and before he realized it, Jazz's hand had reached out to cover Luke's hand. The last sentence about wanting to be affectionate made Jazz blush all over again. Well, maybe he could grant that wish. Shifting briefly to gently pull Luke closer, Jazz slowly wrapped his arms around him. Part of him screamed at him to stop, that this was going to far. Another part wanted to, this was what they'd dreamed of doing after all, wasn't it? Assuming Luke would let them, Jazz returned the kiss, holding it a little bit longer than Luke had but the gentleness was still there. "There's nothing wrong with that..."Jazz murmured, averting his eyes when it seemed he just... couldn't stop from blushing harder than before.
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