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Post by Serafeyna Carroll on Dec 29, 2017 15:41:02 GMT -8
Sera listened closely, doing her best to visualize everything he was saying. It was so hard to picture Lucien in a gang, hard to picture him as any sort of vagrant or vandal. But then, it was hard to imagine him beating up Niso, and before today would have been hard to picture him really angry or upset like this at all. She supposed some would say the same about her, though, hm?
All in all, though... this was nice? It was nice to learn more about him, to see him as more of a rounded and flawed person than just a cute boy toy who also apparently had superpowers. Okay so he was already somewhat more than one flat idea in her head but still, this was nice.
"I think... everyone deserves that chance if they're willing to take it," she said with a simple nod. She'd then... sort of lean forward and down and over and wriggle her way under Lucien's arm to lean against him, aiming to be a bit more affectionate but still primarily comforting. ... Though actually. With a brief snrrk, she mumbled, "Can confirm you're an excellent breeder, by the way~" A brief teasing laugh followed, and she hoped that wasn't too out of line in this moment.
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Post by Lucien Benoit on Dec 29, 2017 16:23:23 GMT -8
As Sera moved, Lucien shifted a little, wincing some but settling again right after. For all the hell they’d incurred, his ribs were not broken. Bruised, tender, and enough to remind him of what he’d done, but not broken. Her mumbled tease had him snickering softly, and as off put as he was about doing anything at the moment, he’d humor her at least. “It’s all in the touch,” his hand shifted a little on her side only to relax again. “Gotta know what pressure ta use.” He sighed a little more exhausted than anything now.
The image of Niso’s aura flicked to mind again, however, and had Lucien tensing some. His teeth grit, and a weird breath came and went from him. “He’s….his… his aura’s…really scary…” He felt stupidly small reiterating that point, but it just wouldn’t seem to go away. “I can see all those …. I guess they’re souls? Auras? People? Pokemon??? All swirling around in him and I ….” He could not afford to be tensing up considering his position but here he was.
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He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you. |
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Post by Serafeyna Carroll on Dec 29, 2017 16:48:59 GMT -8
Ah good, Sera was glad to see he was still open to a little teas-- !!!? She jumped slightly at that somehow-unexpected touch and--?? Was it just because it was unexpected or was he that effortlessly smooth? She suspected probably more or the prior but-- but she was still flustered heh whoops.
...oh but. ..oh. Okay yeah um... She settled again and frowned. "I've never seen it." Or... she guessed she'd caught glimpses of him projecting it but only really enough to guess he'd been working on using it. She'd have assumed it was just Bruce if there hadn't been a handful of times she knew the Zoroark was sleeping or out hunting.
"I don't know if that's something that can be undone? Or if he'd give it up, but..." But it wouldn't bring anyone back, she wanted to say, but... if Luci was right then... were people still suffering? She had a 'but' but what even... what could she...? "...I guess... I try not to think about it," she admitted, as much to herself as him.
"...Does that make me a bad person?"
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Post by Lucien Benoit on Dec 29, 2017 17:45:49 GMT -8
Lucien grimaced a little. “I….” Both eyes closed, and he found himself gazing at her aura the way it moved and swirled and all the colors involved. He’d seen aura since he was small, knew the colors and forms it could take. Saw how it sparked up in certain situations and fell again right after. But he had never seen something so dark and pained as Niso’s aura.
Did it make Sera a bad person? Lucien wasn’t a good judge of that, and he knew it. A small sigh escaped from him. “Maybe?” he mumbled back weakly. “You can’t see it …. And you’ve kept him from adding more to that pile…” That didn’t really mean anything, though. Who was to say Niso wouldn’t just go slaughter millions again once he’d burned out his however many lives? All they had were Niso’s own promises, and Lucien couldn’t trust Niso.
Lucien gulped. “I…I see life in everything,” he spoke quietly tiredly. “My aura master says my vision might be good enough to take a mastery exam someday….It’s always been my strongest skill…I wish I could show you how bright my world is….” He snorted softly. “But looking at Niso’s aura is just…. so…….” He struggled to find a word and shook his head. There was no good word for it.
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He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you. |
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Post by Serafeyna Carroll on Dec 29, 2017 18:00:30 GMT -8
Sera tried to understand what this might really 'look' like to Lucien, but had only the foggiest ideas from secondhand descriptions and conflicting artist representations. She supposed... it might be kind of close to how Dark-types interacted with her Psychic powers? Which was to say, they didn't. Bruce might have unnerved her less if she could feel or hear any feed from him the way she could with others, but that sense of 'void' was inherently unnerving even with some of her own beloved Pokemon, let alone one she had reason to distrust.
But... "Maybe..." Ah, this might be... out of line but... "Maybe that's something that would.. help both of you, kind of? You're... not used to seeing darkness. But I know better than anyone what's hiding under it. So like... what if...? You could learn to see the life and light even in him. Even where it's most obscured..."
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Post by Lucien Benoit on Dec 29, 2017 18:11:50 GMT -8
Lucien mentally and physically flinched. “No,” he insisted with a brief shake of his head. “It’s… painful.” And his ribs were throbbing from the way he moved, and a small noise escaped from him right after. A hand moved, and he pressed hard against his side almost as if he was trying to keep them together. His eyes had watered, and he was struggling to breathe for a few seconds. And yet his mouth was running, repeating that phrase again and again. “It’s so pained… it’s so painful…” Each set of phrases was a little quieter than the last and growing progressively weaker in force.
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Coordinator
He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you. |
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Post by Serafeyna Carroll on Dec 29, 2017 18:39:56 GMT -8
At his flinch and continued movements thereafter, Sera moved away to give him space and avoid being caught in the "crossfire" of his motions. His staunch insistence, though, had her very upset. ...Well no shit, he was so she was, but it-- Aside from that, she was.. she supposed annoyed was the closest word.
"And what," she said after a while of watching his mantra. "You think ignoring it will make it go away? Or that not seeing it will lessen their pain? They can't go back to their old lives, so how is the next best thing not to encourage Niso to do some good with it?" She didn't know if that would ever help, ever take away the pain or instill a sense of harmony, but damn she didn't see any sense in not trying.
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Post by Lucien Benoit on Dec 29, 2017 18:50:30 GMT -8
Lucien grimaced again, his eyes stinging. “Because it’s not their choice,” he snapped back just as fast. “They didn’t get asked to be ripped from their bodies and put into that mass.” His hands had balled into fists again. “He forced them together and they’re so…so distressed… they’re so squirmy and so upset and…” Did he even know this? Could he even be sure? No, not at all. Unlike the rainbow of aura that allowed him to decipher a person’s emotions, Niso’s dark mass had been impossible to get a read on and yet… this was what he felt regardless? From seeing it? His own interpretation maybe. Reaching both hands up he pressed hard into his temples. “He needs to let them go.”
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Coordinator
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Post by Serafeyna Carroll on Dec 29, 2017 19:00:30 GMT -8
Sera's jaw tightened a bit. "Oh sure. No problem. Humans can totally just.." her hands flew up for emphasis "let their souls go free whenever they feel like, right?" ... Well technically, said her brain, and she quickly cut it off as a bit of frustrated red rose to her cheeks. "I... I mean I didn't mean it like that. ...Though I guess.. that's not even an option for Niso, is it. Unless that's what you want?"
She crossed her arms, crossed her legs and settled into a more scrutinizing position. "You want him to endure thousands of deaths on end to 'release' those souls? I mean, assuming that wouldn't just burn them up like fuel and destroy them forever. Or assuming any other way of releasing them wouldn't just let them fade into nothing. And unless you know something the rest of us don't..." She took a deep breath and huffed, looking away-- to hide her watering eyes, she realized. She-?? When had... Niso's fear of death infected her to this degree? "I'd rather exist in some painful nebulous mass than not at all, personally. Who are you to decide their fate any more than Niso was?"
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Post by Lucien Benoit on Dec 29, 2017 19:28:33 GMT -8
“I’d rather not exist than be like that.” Lucien’s hands clenched. “I am one of the few people who can see them and feel them.” Was that a justification, an argument in of itself, or something more convoluted? “And what other options are there? To just let him abuse them for an eternity? To leave them at his mercy? When he doesn’t even—“
Lucien cut himself off, and for a few seconds, a couple of quiet breaths drew in and out of him. Arceus fuck, didn’t he just say that he didn’t want to feel like this. Even for someone else. He did not want to get this worked up. He was too tired, too drained. He’d given too many fucks for many years to come. After those few seconds were up, he deflated some. “Sorry…. Sorry I know… I get it ok; I don’t have the answers I just…” He wasn’t crying she was the only one clearly.
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Coordinator
He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you. |
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Post by Serafeyna Carroll on Dec 29, 2017 19:40:00 GMT -8
Sera jumped back a bit as he lashed out, but mostly just from being startled. It did unnerve her-- and probably on some level triggered her whole thing with people yelling at her? But not as much as it probably would have a year ago, she realized. Was it because she was fighting for Niso, or because she'd gotten more confident since meeting Niso, or...? Huh. Thoughts for another time. But regardless, after her momentary jump, she steeled herself easily enough.
"There's the option to try to calm them," she more or less repeated. "To at least try to... see if it's even possible, but... Imagine if, instead of painfully stuck together, they could just... be holding hands, comforting each other. Imagine if instead of being held prisoner, they could be nurtured and protected." It... was sounding dumber the more she said it out loud, and she frowned, but... "I don't know if that's possible either, but... I don't want to assume it's not without trying."
... Sighing and looking up to him with tired but hopeful eyes, she'd note, "It would be a lot easier to know if any progress is being made if I could count on your eyes, though..."
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Post by Lucien Benoit on Dec 29, 2017 19:56:35 GMT -8
Sera’s words had Lucien frowning, but he sighed and deflated over his knees again. Such a proposition sounded ridiculous, but he was tired and didn’t have enough emotion to rev up an argument again. A different ‘option’ did come to mind, but … he’d have to think on it more, work on it maybe, ask Miss Viola if it was even possible. Man… couldn’t he just go sit back down on the beach in the sun and take a fucking nap or something.
That last statement, or maybe Sera’s expression, had a weird chuckle coming and going from Lucien. For a second or two, his normal gold spheres took on a greenish aura hue before he closed them again. “I guess it could be good training…maybe…” Pfft. He was…laughing at himself a little now, but whatever.
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He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you. |
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Post by Serafeyna Carroll on Dec 29, 2017 20:12:14 GMT -8
Yeah? Yeah, heh... If that would make him consider helping, sure. She'd nod slightly, and then... Ugh, where did she even go from here? This was supposed to be a fun day. This was... supposed to be getting her life back on track. And here she was, stressed and upset again. Because...?
In some impulsive lapse of filter, a few words fell out of her mouth: "I didn't ask for this." What??? What, no, she-- She'd have rolled over and died if Niso heard her say that, but... It was out now, and Lucien said Niso ran off after their fight, right? And... and if Lucien came to her about this rather than raising a public alarm then... he could probably be trusted? So...
Tapping into that little piece she kept so deeply buried, she went on. "I didn't set out on my Pokemon journey looking to fall in love with with a mass-murdering spiritual anomaly. When I met him, being friendly and dancing with him was just... my way of protecting everyone, of avoiding a fight." She drew her knees up and wrapped her arms around them. "All I wanted to do was put on shows and make people happy, share love and kindness with everyone and... try to make the world a little brighter." She guessed Lucien's world was already so bright, huh? Heh...
"I didn't ask for the one person who really understood me and appreciated me and supported me in anything I wanted to do to be.... this. And..." She bit her lip, blinking away a few more tears. She wanted to say given the choice between her happiness and their lives, she'd choose the latter so long as it was really guaranteed but... It hurt just a little too much to think about losing Niso to say something like that out loud.
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Post by Lucien Benoit on Dec 29, 2017 20:34:37 GMT -8
I didn’t ask for this. Pfff. Luci was tempted to say something but kept his mouth shut as Sera kept talking. The more she spoke, though, the more it started to click. Those feelings she had shared were so different from anything he’d ever felt on his own, and he guessed that was just how love was or was supposed to be or maybe just what it was to her.
Lucien sighed back. A hand moved back around to Sera, and he tried to coax her to lean on him again but wouldn’t force her if she clearly didn’t want to be touched. “If it’s any consolation you handle it fucking swell,” he exhaled dramatically before smiling a little weakly and letting even that go from his features after that.
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Post by Serafeyna Carroll on Dec 29, 2017 21:10:19 GMT -8
The position she'd moved to sitting in made leaning odd, but she'd accept the hand on her shoulder regardless. At least until those words elicited a sharp, bitter laugh. "Handle what well?" Swell. Whatever he said.
"The part where I blatantly ignore everything fucked up here out of some sense of blind optimism, or a desire for something I feel for myself to be valid for once?" Which she apparently couldn't even do right for all the doubts and fears now surfacing. "Or the part where I just have to hide such a big part of my life from the whole world? Or maybe the part where every time someone I care about learns who I'm dating it makes them want nothing to do with me?"
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