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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 9, 2017 21:35:04 GMT -8
Right after having made plans with Nik, Orion had swore he was going to talk to Jazz about it that day. Unfortunately, right after, Mom decided to come through the door, and well all his plans went to hell and back. He spent almost two weeks focused on other things, doing this that and the other. And then Luke decided to get himself kidnapped by Nihilego which was a whole ‘nother mess entirely that he wasn’t even a direct part of but required more attention regardless. Now that that was all kind of settled, however… Back to the pressing matter of discussing houses.
If… he could just will himself to say anything?
Sitting on the couch watching one of the new season’s hottest dramas, he debated whether to bring it up now or later. A pizza was coming soon, so he could just wait until then or maybe like … after. But… no he’d been putting this off long enough, and they were both on the couch right then and it made sense and was a neutral situation and… Why the fuck was he even worried about this? Because. Oh, right, obviously. Orion groaned. “Jazz is it me or is this show stupider than expected?” he asked after a moment.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 9, 2017 22:44:04 GMT -8
Man, life had been crazy hadn't it? The past few weeks had been one thing after another and Jazz still felt like his head was reeling from everything that had happened. The talk with Mom had been great but... tense at the same time. There were a lot of emotions involved but she was understanding of the reason why Jazz had eaten the Chroma cookie. That was something at least. It was still weird to have a baby brother but, Vincent was sweet, even if he did pull her hair. Good things did come from rotten situations after all it seemed. It had been nice to hear that Mom had left the asshole stepfather as well and from what Oriana had said, left him with Abe. That didn't really sound good, and for a moment Jazz almost pitied the jerkface. Almost. Now though, things seemed to have almost settled into a strange sense of normalcy. That fucking Nihilego still possessed Luke, but Jazz was coming to terms with that. One of the only reasons they weren't at Luke's right then was because he'd promise to actually rest. Whether he would or not was debatable but eh, he was gonna trust Luke on this. Aside from that, it was pretty great to catch up on soaps with Orion again. It seemed like ages since they'd last been able to do this. Or maybe it just felt like that because of how crazy life had been. He was relaxed on the couch, engrossed in the newest episode when he heard Orion's question, eliciting a snort. "Isn't that the point?"Jazz quipped, smirking a bit before gesturing to the TV, "I mean, these shows are built on cliches and bad tropes. That's what makes them awesome?"he continued, snickering a bit more. "Don't forget you got me hooked on these, 'rion. I don't know what I would do without them,"Jazz joked, his voice all but dripping with sarcasm.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 10, 2017 6:50:20 GMT -8
Isn’t that the point? A small huff of air escaped from Orion. Jazz clearly didn’t know that these kinds of shows had a standard to live up to! And yet Jazz’s reassurance that the terribleness of it actually made it good had him smirking a bit. “True enough,” he answered reaching up to pull his glasses off to clean them. He paused, however, at Jazz’s last words. Even if it was a joke, it tied back inadvertently to what he was thinking and bleh. Glancing forward again, he took in a breath. “That and.. the real world would be much simpler if it was just that.” Setting his glasses back on, he sat back again.
He’d muddle over it for a little while longer, and the show would unexpectedly end in a cliff hanger. “Oooh noooo now we’re going to have to wait until next time to see if Robbie’s ex’s brother’s friend will be rescued in time.” The melodramatic tone he used was just right as he laughed thereafter. Another pause. Come on, the show was actually over now, and the pizza had yet to get here. This was a perfect time to bring this up.
Their doorbell rang, and Orion found himself shifting up. “I’ll get it if you set the table,” he stated already starting towards the door. The pizza man was a thin sixteen year old with a weird expression on his face. Orion swapped cash for the pizza and tipped him extra for some reason. Closing the door and walking back, he set the pizzas on the table. We can talk about it over dinner too. Bah. “Jazz, are these extra garlic knots?” he asked smirking a bit.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 11, 2017 2:16:21 GMT -8
Jazz snickered more at Orion's reaction and grinned, stretching a bit. At the comment about real life being simpler if it mimicked soaps, Jazz grimaced a bit. "Ehh, I don't think so. I mean, I could do without so much drama like the soaps are built on. Yeah, there's the happily ever after endings but, life isn't simple. Shit, I think we both know that. I mean, it's nice to get lost in these soaps but I wouldn't want to be in 'em, yunno?"Jazz explained, shrugging before turning back to the show. Geez, did the commercials in these get longer and stupider? Maybe. Well, at least there wasn't much left of the soap. If only they could...- "Fucking hell. I HATE cliffhangers!"Jazz practically growled, groaning at Orion's statement. He would've continued saying something more when the pizza guy came. Heh, perfect timing. They could eat and talk about the soap and maybe swap theories. A two-fingered salute would be given as Jazz headed towards the kitchen. Did he really feel like doing dishes later? Nah, there had to be a couple disposable plates around here. It didn't take too long to fish out a couple paper plates and a pair of sodas while Orion paid the pizza guy. The question posed to him as soon as the pizzas were on the table had Jazz smirking more. "C'mon, ya can't blame me. Those are delicious~,"Jazz replied without skipping a beat, grabbing a few garlic knots and some slices of pizza as he spoke. Man, he was starving. Hmm, maybe he'd save some for Luke to make sure he actually ate something. Ever since the whole Nihilego fiasco, Jazz worried more about Luke and well, he wanted to see where this road would take them. Besides, there was still a part of Jazz that didn't completely trust the Nihilego and probably never would. Which reminded him... how much did Orion know about that day? Jazz couldn't remember if he'd mentioned that the Nihilego had fused with him before Luke. Ehh, maybe he'd ask later if it came up.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 11, 2017 19:05:41 GMT -8
The smirk on Jazz’s face was enough to have Orion smirking back. Could he blame him? Not at all. “Nope, good thinking,” was all he’d answer back with before setting the boxes on the table and letting Jazz have at it. Taking up his own slices of pizza and a couple knots as well, he started
Ok, ok they were eating. That was as good a time as any to bring it this up. How to be subtle with it but still direct yes. Chomping down on a garlic knot, he paused frowning. “Are these garlic cheddar knots?” he grumbled setting the two he’d swiped back in the box. If he wanted cheese and bread he’d have regular pizza thanks. Eating a bit of pizza cleared the taste up pretty quick.
“… Hey, Jazz?” Setting an elbow on the table, Orion rested his cheek in one fist and took another bite of pizza. “What do ya think about moving out of here? …I was talking to Nik about maybe getting a house and… wondering if you had any thoughts on if you’d wanna stay or come with us or…”
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 11, 2017 22:17:28 GMT -8
Jazz grinned when Orion agreed with him, already chomping into a garlic knot. Mmmm this was delicious, just like he remembered. The cheddar cheese actually gave it a little something extra that he enjoyed. It seemed that Orion didn't share this sentiment however as he put the two he'd grabbed back. "Sorry man, they must've made a mistake. More for me though~,"Jazz smirked, grabbing the two Orion had dropped. Popping those into his mouth, Jazz finished the garlic cheddar knots pretty quickly and had moved onto the pizza when Orion said his name. Green eyes raised to look at Orion as he continued working on the pizza. The next question though had him paling a little, squinting at Orion. Fuck, no, he didn't want to move again. They'd just settled down here, established some roots even. Was Orion actually insinuating that they move? Again? I guess it was only a matter of time...It wasn't until Orion continued that Jazz felt like he could breathe again and sat back in his chair with a sigh. "Fuck, 'rion, don't scare me like that. I thought ya were trying to uproot us again for a sec,"Jazz murmured, taking another bite of pizza, "Dunno though. A lot of my work is centered around Sinclair,"he continued, running his fingers through his hair. It'd take me away from Luke. Right... there was that too. He didn't want to be too far away, especially if Luke was researching the Nihilego more. It worried him, way too much. "Where were ya thinking of moving to? Or... I guess the next question would be, why doya wanna move?"Jazz asked, still not entirely convinced this wasn't another attempt at just, uprooting them from everything. Veria was safe though... ok, relatively safe, at least compared to Era. What reason did they have to leave? None that Jazz could think of, not immediately anyway.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 12, 2017 6:31:00 GMT -8
Jazz’s squint had Orion forcing a smile. At least he seemed to take it better when he heard the stipulations of this ‘move’ but. Going to uproot us— As in like completely move? Out of Veria or? As Jazz went on, Orion gave a small nod. He knew that. “That’s why I’m asking,” he answered briefly. The question asked thereafter had him taking a bite of pizza to prolongue the question. Why did he want to move? Because I want to live with Nik and this place is too small and his place isn’t going to be there so—
“I just said Nik and I were thinking of moving in together and— this place is too small. I … want a house with a back yard and a pool,” he half-snorted at his own words. Maybe nix the pool depending on how much yard it took up but… “It wouldn’t be out of Veria… just into a different town, was thinking maybe Caravella or Alterna or Alto or—“ No, he really really didn’t want to live in Liggs with the air as thin as it was but that was an option he guessed.
There was a pause before he reached up and scratched his scalp briefly. “If you don’t want to move out of Sinclair entirely, we could have you keep this place and elbow Luke into my room,” he smirked a bit on thinking of that. “Then he’d have to take a break once in a while away from the lab or whatever.” Heh, he’d considered that too after all.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 12, 2017 12:06:58 GMT -8
That forced smile would've been suspicious if Orion hadn't already clarified that he wanted a house. Generally that meant sticking around, especially since houses didn't move. Jazz was relieved to say the least of things, he didn't want to move to a hotel room again after getting so used to actually having his own room. As Jazz questioned the reason behind moving along with how problematic it could be for his work, Orion seemed to take this in stride. He's really thought this out, huh... It was... maybe the first time Jazz had seen him actually want to put down roots and well... it felt nice. He wants to move in with Nik. Well, wasn't that sweet. Jazz had been seeing quite a bit of Nik lately and though he still wanted to battle him, this whole Nihilego thing got in the way of that. Lately, Jazz's focus had been on Luke and helping him and-... Since when did I become so obsessed with Luke? There didn't seem to be a moment when Jazz wasn't thinking about him, worrying about him, wondering what he was doing... I'm like some lovesick school boy. Groaning internally, Jazz ate another slice of pizza as he listened, smirking a bit when Orion talked about wanting a backyard and a pool, even moving to a different town. "Awww, not Liggs?"Jazz teased, smirking a bit as he continued to eat. Orion's next suggestion however made Jazz stop and think, setting the pizza down for the time being. Why didn't I think of that? Moving in with Luke would solve everything wouldn't it? He wouldn't be worrying so much, could make sure that Luke actually got some decent rest, and could keep an eye on the Nihilego too. A brief, if awkward chuckle left Jazz's lips as he rested his chin in one hand, "Yunno, ya have a point. Moving in with Luke would solve a lot of things..." he mused, looking thoughtful for a few moments before focusing on Orion again, "I think I wanna move in with him... or make him move out 'ere, whichever. Dunno how much he told ya about what happened with the Nihilego but... it fused with me first," he continued, falling silent as he let that sink in. If he'd just dropped a bombshell, he'd know in a few moments but for now, Jazz would just finish the rest of his pizza.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 12, 2017 16:20:55 GMT -8
Orion… had not expected Jazz to take this so well. The way in which Jazz assessed things, found assurance in them, and went on was, well, refreshing in a way. He might have said more, gone on to argue that Luke needed a roommate anyways as he was working too much for anyone’s sake but…. what came after was much more interesting. It fused with me first. Yes, and? Orion waited, but when there was no further explanation, he set his elbow on the table and looked at him thoughtfully. “And Luke had to convince it off of you, Luke mentioned that.” But what about that was related to this aside from—
Oh. Oh? Oh. Jazz’s crush was no secret. They’d talked about it before, swapped thoughts on it before, and went on with it. It was only now, however, that Orion became aware of just how that might have twisted the circumstances of what went down. Orion took a slower bite of pizza, his eyes fixated on Jazz. “What was the experience like?” he prompted after a moment.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 12, 2017 23:49:09 GMT -8
So Luke had mentioned it. Good, that was good. That meant there was less to explain about the entire incident. Still, in a way it had been good for Jazz... especially since it led to that awkward but needed conversation with Luke. Not only that, but Luke had said he loved them and well, things had been pretty great since then. They weren't official yet by any means, but Jazz had hope that it could get there for the first time in years. For now, that was enough. By the time Orion seemed to get it, Jazz had finished his pizza and a couple of garlic knots. The question however, had him shifting a bit uncomfortably and chewing the knots perhaps a little longer than necessary. Anything to procrastinate answering the question. Fuck it. Best get this over with. "Shit, straight to the point, huh?"Jazz smirked a bit, running his fingers through his hair. A breath would be taken before Jazz closed his eyes, trying to figure out the best way to phrase this. There was no good way was there, no, there wasn't. "First off, that day was hell. I swear Arceus painted a target on my back. Fucking everything was attacking me. Well... the Crabrawler I kicked was my fault but, whatever. Still, even as much as I hurt, when the Nihilego grabbed Luke first? I panicked and pulled him out... or it decided I was the better target, dunno,"Jazz started, shrugging his shoulders a bit and popping a garlic knot in his mouth. The next part... fuck, he still didn't like remembering it. A shiver ran down his spine and he closed his eyes briefly if only to avoid answering that much longer. "It fucking asked me what I wanted, 'rion. What my deepest desires were. Hell if my first thought wasn't Luke, to protect him, keep him safe... and a whole slew of other things. I actually hoped that it could... somehow reverse the past, make me something Mom... could be proud of,"Jazz murmured, his voice cracking a bit as he remembered the rush of feelings. What it was like in the Nihilego. What he'd become. Another breath, another garlic knot. Fuck, he hated telling this. But... who else could understand better than Orion? "In the Nihilego, it was like I could see everything. I had power, I could protect Luke, everyone I cared about. And then... Luke started yelling... I-... he even said he loved me, 'rion. And I-... The Nihilego fueled my desires, my need to protect him. Fuck if I didn't almost become a yandere killing machine,"Jazz said shakily, taking a deep breath, "Luke yelled at me, called me selfish for... for trying to protect him. Fuck, I was just afraid what that thing would do. I still do. I rejected the Nihilego, told it to let me go. Even was gonna try and tell my Aggron to take me down with it. It... it trapped me, 'rion. I couldn't move, couldn't speak, couldn't do anything. I don't trust it, can't trust it. I'm terrified that will happen to Luke but... it's good for him? He can see normally and just. Fuck I hate that thing,"he swore, pulling at his hair before slamming his hands on the table. Standing up, Jazz grabbed a beer from the fridge and took a long swig. Telling that again, reliving that moment when he was trapped in the Nihilego... something he hadn't even told Luke? Hell, he hated this. Hated that Luke had just told him he loved them and that damn Nihilego was in the way. "I can't get Luke out of my mind, 'rion. Not just cuz of the Nihilego but... we... we talked. He kissed me and-..." Fuck. When had he started crying? Why was this so hard? It... hurt? So much? Another swig would be taken before Jazz sat back down at the table, head in his hands. Fuck this.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 13, 2017 7:11:29 GMT -8
The way Jazz initially averted the question or prolonged answering it was almost enough for Orion to surmise the general feeling the incident held. As Jazz began recounting the events, however, something more serious started to pull onto Orion’s features. It asked me what I wanted, what my deepest desires were. Those things Jazz named were particularly painful in a whole different way for Orion. It might have consumed his thoughts had Jazz not used a trope reference next. PFFFF. Well, well they both knew what it was so that was useful but—
It trapped me, Rion. Couldn’t move, couldn’t speak, couldn’t do anything. I don’t trust it, can’t trust it… terrified it will happen to Luke. As Jaz slammed his hands on the table, Orion frowned. He followed Jazz with his eyes as he got up but didn’t cut him off as he started to speak again. Not just cause of the Nihilego but we talked. He kissed me and— ….
This was… not just a crush anymore, and Orion didn’t know how to feel. He hadn’t— even ever considered Luke would reciprocate with Jazz even when he did become a guy and … Now he just had no idea what to think or feel on that? This isn’t about me, though. At least…. Not right then. Pushing the chair back, Orion stood, closing the distance between himself and Jazz and just … hugging him to himself. “Easy, easy … don’t need to cry but it’s ok to…”{/b]
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 13, 2017 14:12:15 GMT -8
Recounting the entire thing left Jazz feeling drained. He couldn't tell exactly why he was crying, just that it hurt... so much. Luke had told him that there was nothing wrong with him, that it was ok to cry... even when it didn't make sense. That didn't mean he had to like it though, it made him feel pathetic. More than anything though, Jazz was scared. He had never felt this way before and if Luke decided he didn't feel the same way...? How could he go back? Would Luke really tease him like that? Jazz didn't look up when he heard Orion's chair move, at least not until he suddenly felt arms around him. At first, Jazz didn't move, didn't say anything, what could he say after that? Slowly, his arms wrapped around Orion, hiding his face against him. Even if Orion said it was alright to cry, Jazz didn't want to. He hated crying, it made him feeling weak, pathetic. Right. Luke had told him to stop calling himself that... but, feelings were feelings and he still couldn't seem to break that habit quite yet. It would be a bit before the tears would stop and Jazz let go of Orion again, roughly wiping what tears remained from his face. "I'm... scared, 'rion,"Jazz murmured, not quite looking at him, "Not just because of the Nihilego but... Luke said he still didn't know how he felt. That we aren't ready yet but... He wouldn't tease me, right? He wouldn't-..."he continued, trailing off again, biting his lip. That wasn't a fair question to ask, and Jazz knew it. He knew he should give him more credit than that but... if it took the Nihilego to make Luke admit his feelings, really, where did that leave him? "I want to move in with him. I... I almost feel like I have to. It might help me stop worrying about that damn Nihilego and... I could help Luke. He asked me to help him with engineering, I could keep an eye on him then and... maybe see where this goes?" Jazz murmured, running his fingers through his hair. Ugh. Why was this so hard. Why couldn't he just be happy about it? Because of that damn Nihilego. Right.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 13, 2017 14:34:04 GMT -8
Orion didn’t say anything, just waited. He let go of Jazz only as he released him. As Jazz spoke, Orion listened. All those fears, all those worries, all those insecurities poured out and Orion took them up. Reaching a hand up, however, he slowly pet Jazz, feeling through his hair slowly.
“Luke is Luke,” Orion stated softly yet simply. “He’s probably more scared than you are but for a different reason.” He smirked a bit playfully but only for a second before letting his features relax again. “I messed him up… and I’m pretty sure every relationship after has too,” he snorted a bit rolling his eyes. “He has more experience earnestly falling in love with someone and dating than he knows what to do with.”
Slowly his hand dropped from his hair again. “He’s probably hurting at the idea of trying again.” There was a pause and Orion folded his arms in front of himself. “I can’t say what’s going on in his head,” he sighed. “But we both know he’s not the type of person to tease. He hates teasing.” A devious smirk came and went from Orion’s features. “I’m sure he’s weighing, assessing, and trying to find a balance. That’s the way he is, neh?” Luke was always the most balanced of persons. It was part of the reason Orion liked him.
Letting his gaze flicker sideways, however, Orion shrugged. “I wouldn’t force moving in on him though,” he hummed. “Backing Luke into a corner is never a good idea.” Looking back he shook his head once. “Ask him what he wants before putting something like that in front of him or I’ll never hear the end of it.”?”
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 13, 2017 14:56:00 GMT -8
Jazz fell silent after that, not knowing what else to say. He was scared still but, Orion knew that, he'd explained as much. The fingers through his hair calmed him a little, not much but it was something. Orion's words had Jazz looking at him again though he wasn't quite able to smirk back. He felt too numb, too raw for that right then. Still, Orion's admission that he messed Luke up stung a little. He remembered Orion telling him they'd dated before but, it was alright. Or so he told himself. Luke has more experience falling in love. Yeah, Jazz knew that too. Of course, Jazz had spent most of his life running from love when his first betrayed him. Friends with benefits were awesome, but that was all they ever were, all they were allowed to be. Luke is probably hurting at the idea of trying again. Why didn't he see that? Was he so focused on his own fears that he didn't realize Luke was scared too? Maybe... maybe he should talk to Luke about this. About everything. If only that damn Nihilego wasn't there. The reminder that Luke hated teasing was a relief to say the least of things. It was reassuring to know that this wasn't a lie at least, that Luke really was thinking about it. Jazz had been led on before, used even, and he was afraid of the past repeating itself. A small smirk played on Jazz's features when Orion explained that Luke was trying to find a balance. Orion's next words however had a sudden laugh escaping from Jazz. What the fuck, 'rion? Did you gain mind reading powers? "I swear, you can read minds, 'rion. I was thinking of just taking my stuff and showing up at his lab one of these days. But... I see your point. I would hate to give you a hard time because of this,"Jazz smirked, running his fingers through his hair, "I doubt I could convince him to leave his lab though. Even if it would be pretty sweet to have this apartment to ourselves,"he continued, sighing as he finished the beer.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 13, 2017 15:14:22 GMT -8
Orion rolled his eyes. “You basically said you felt you had to move in with him and are reckless enough so,” he smirked a bit harder than necessary. At Jazz’s words, Orion shrugged. “Don’t assume anything with Luke, you seem to be really bad at getting him,” he jeered a bit before slowly stepping back to the pizza boxes. “You want anymore or are we good?” he asked already starting to fold the boxes closed and getting them ready for the fridge. Whatever Jazz said, he’d either leave out a couple slices or not but the rest would be folded up and put in the refrigerator. “I am gonna go house hunting some tomorrow but let me know what he says when you talk to him.”
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