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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 2, 2017 13:09:09 GMT -8
A sharp tension ran through Nik at those words, and he first stiffened hard, then pulled away to sit up and look down at Orion. With a renewed energy and vague sense of authority in his voice, he retorted, "I. don't. want. you to impress me, jackass." Oh, oh no that was too sharp but. "What makes me proud of you is fighting against your destructive tendencies. Taking care of yourself. Showing me you want a normal life with me." His pace in both words and breathing had picked up a bit as this wired energy kept buzzing.
"I'm proud of you every day that you come home safe after working hard for us. I'm proud every time you perfect a recipe or just think of some little twist to try or..." He huffed, finally starting to settle somewhat, but only just enough to be noticeable. "I'm proud when I can walk around town and flaunt you, and when you make efforts to take care of me and to take care of Jazz and Luke, when you remember something I need to feel comfortable. I'm proud of you for talking to your mom and making progress there. I'm..."
He gave a longer and heavier sigh. "Not proud of you for getting yourself beat to hell behind my back... but I'm... proud to know you care so deeply. I just...."
He pursed his lips, and thought carefully on how to articulate the vague feeling he had. ...Oh? Okay, yeah, that sounded right. "People equate sacrifice with merit, but when you don't value your own life, putting it in danger is easy. Taking care of yourself is harder, and proves a lot more. So that's what I want from you..."
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‘Cause these words are knives that often leave scars The fear of falling apart |
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 2, 2017 14:03:08 GMT -8
Orion flinched. Yeah yeah of course. He rolled sideways. Flat backed was easier than laying on his side. Hhhhhhhhhhhh. But ….. but those things were…..HHHHHHHhhhhhhh. Hhhhhhhhhh. HHHHHhhhhHHHHHHhhhhhhh. HHhhhhh. HHHHHHHHHHH. HhhhhhhHHHHHhhhh. HhhhHHHhhHhhHHhHHhHhHH. Ugh.
The last part did do something for him— kind of. Yellow eyes closed. It was very hard at the moment to put any value in his life of his own accord but…. Knowing he could do something for Nik just by… being around was…. nice yeah. And…. and it wasn’t like he didn’t know that. He knew that but….
And then a thought hit him, and he was choking back an annoying amount of thoughts and feelings all at once. “I wanna make you happy….” He couldn’t… do that kind of stuff for hismelf without….hhhhhh….. “I just….” he groaned and rubbed his face trying to keep himself from sobbing again. Ugh.
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I can't help it, I'm a babbling idiot. Please kiss me quick, 'cause I need to feel it~ |
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 2, 2017 14:22:53 GMT -8
Nik frowned, or maybe grimaced rather, but inside some bit of hope returned to him. "You do, babe. Just by being here and being safe." He couldn't really emphasize the latter enough, but also felt like doing so too much was only going to wear Orion down in a bad way. He just... couldn't stand the thought of him not coming home, or getting another hospital call any time soon, or...
...A sillier thought occurred, and he debated whether to share it, but.. he felt like it worked and might lighten the mood, heh. "I mean... look at you..." He ran a hand up Orion's back, then over his shoulder and on his chest as he shifted closer and held him again. In the same vaguely judgmental tone, he went on, "Do you know how careful I'm gonna have to be about all these bruises? How much that's gonna limit our options in bed? Like, probably all week." In more than one way given Orion was currently dealing with limited options of how to comfortably lay but ssh. "You've gotta remember the consequences of these kinds of actions." ... He really hoped he sounded dramatic enough to get the intended humor across at this point.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 2, 2017 15:08:45 GMT -8
Look at you. Orion flinched, not exactly expecting anything aside from another scolding, but as that hand moved, he slowly relaxed. The judgmental tone and those silly words forced a vague half-laugh from him. Ah, heh, yeah. Sex had been the furthest thing from his mind considering but…now it was funny, kind of, ish. But Nik was right, he was going to have to be careful heh… … heh…… A weird noise, not quite a laugh not quite a cry, escaped from Orion. “I’ll … be better before a week….promise,” he snorted softly. “No broken bones, no huge lacerations... I’ll be fine before you know it….” He sighed a bit weaker snuggling against Nik some. “Just need like 30 more hours of sleep….”
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 2, 2017 15:41:43 GMT -8
"You better be," he replied, but his voice was far weaker and more affectionate now. He snuggled up a bit more intimately now, nuzzling his hair and running his hand over him, not in a way meant to be enticing so much as just soothing. "Mm... Dunno if I can give you up for 30 hours though..." He leaned in a bit more to kiss his cheek, lingering a bit there.
"Tell you what... Wanna curl up and watch something with me for a bit, and then maybe later I can see if Jazz wants to go somewhere with me so you can have the house quiet to try to sleep more?"
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 2, 2017 15:59:35 GMT -8
Those snuggles and pets were… very soothing, and Orion’s breath was evening out some even then. Maybe it was the medication kicking in, but his mood was lifting a little too. The offer earned a soft noise. Some part of him did not want to be alone, but the other part guessed he wouldn’t be since dream land was supposedly a realm where minds connected or some sappy shit like that. “That … sounds nice,” he admitted softly. “Sounds….really nice…” His voice was starting to drift some even then, but mostly because he was comfortable. A weird thought came to him, and a half laugh escaped from him. “I wanna watch Ponyo….” Why? Cause it was easy to not think through and cute and fffff. #Daughter.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 2, 2017 16:12:24 GMT -8
...... Nik lost his fight to suppress a snort. Of course he'd love Ponyo. "Sure thing..~" He'd trade the phone for a laptop and look for the movie... only to have a thought occur.
He probably hit the bed a bit hard as he scooted back over next to Orion. "Hey! Hey babe. We should get a huge aquarium eventually~! Or like, several even." They could put one in the living room and/or the flex space or possibly the deck if they got it walled in like they'd talked about and got some local fish that'd do well with Pahala's light and such.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 2, 2017 16:42:11 GMT -8
Orion visibly perked up at Nik’s words as he scooted close. Several was a great number, especially when they were right by the sea. “Fuck yessssssss.” And and and there was an aquarium in town too if he remembered right??? That house was in such a great place in terms of stuff to see and do, and hell Old Pahala was right there too— He wondered how often he could convince Nik to go hunting for items there heh. He was getting excited for the house again, and suddenly a mess of overwhelming feeling seemed to wash over him??? They would… they would theoretically be moving in soon and ???? FFFFFF. He shifted a bit and tried to get comfortable again right up next to Nik to watch the movie.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 2, 2017 20:41:54 GMT -8
Nik would snicker a bit at that reaction, but then curl right up to watch. Ahhh, every so often throughout the movie a thought of some other thing they could do with the house occurred and would be briefly passed back and forth, but for the most part they just watched Orion's small fish daughter. (Nik hadn't actually seen this movie all the way through either? He hadn't even realized until about halfway through he started getting more invested in seeing what happened heh.)
Only after that wrapped up would they finally get up. Nik threw on a tshirt-- nothing witty today, just one with a few Marvel characters-- and a pair of pajama pants, then let Jasna out of her ball to work on a few light stretches with her still-broken leg before carrying her into the kitchen with them. He'd insist on making Orion breakfast, knowing it wouldn't be nearly as good but insisting it was just the principle of being about to service him while he was hurt and to show that he really was grateful for the intent and the reward. Just some simple fruit pancakes, but.. ah, he could decorate them pretty nicely at least. That part he was good at~ Oh look at this big stupid elaborate heart of fruit and whipped cream and nuts and all the mini hearts within it and fff what was he a middle school girl? ... Maybe.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 2, 2017 21:05:42 GMT -8
By the time Jazz stirred and gotten some clothes on, Orion had eaten Nik’s dorky love pancakes and was sitting at the table drinking a cup of coffee from his favorite “All You Need is LOVE” mug. Just from looking at him, it was pretty clear he had no intents of stepping foot outside that day. While he’d bothered to put clothes on, the loose t-shirt he’d gone with was an old [Pb] Zeppelin shirt and the bottoms were a pair of ratty old sweat pants with tiny eels on them. His hair was tied up in a loose clip but otherwise a mess. He was ready for bed again whenever it happened to come around.
As the Wigglytuff started bounding over, Orion’s gaze flickered over to it. “Morning Marsh,” was the brief greeting before he found Kovu at his legs instead. Thankfully he was sitting and could adjust his legs to keep the Luxray from pishing too hard but mmmmmm. “Jazz…. You feeling better today?” Orion could only hope considering the amount of stuff he’d already gone through that morning.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Dec 2, 2017 21:24:34 GMT -8
Huh? Oh... it seemed he was the last one up today. Well, considering he'd pulled a few overnighters at work getting the damned updates finished, he probably needed it. Grabbing the first mug from the cupboard, Jazz only hummed briefly in response until he poured the coffee for himself. All but flopping down at the table, Jazz sipped his coffee and looked up at Orion again. Right, he was really going to ask that question? Now? Of all times? Green eyes stared down at the coffee in his hands, not quite sure how to answer that question. The answer was no, he was far from alright. 'Better' wasn't even close to how he was feeling either. It was... hard to describe really but well, he wasn't eager about rehashing the night's events either. A half-hearted shrug would be given after a few moments had passed. "Managed to sleep if that's wut ya mean,"Jazz murmured quietly. It wasn't. He knew that, but he couldn't bring himself to say anything more. What killed him the most was how close he'd come to cutting himself again. It had been weeks since the last time, maybe even a month. Just because of one night, just because he was too weak... he'd almost screwed everything up. So much for trying to be better. Yeah, Luke didn't know what he was asking him to do. Clearly. Why do I still care? If Luke regretted it... it shouldn't matter.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 2, 2017 21:48:15 GMT -8
Nik had sat down to nom about half his food, too, by the time Jazz came in. Once he and Orion exchanged greetings, Nik would note, "There's some extra pancakes for you in the microwave if you want 'em. Sorry if they're not as fancy as Ri's~" By which he more meant 'I made them for you just so you know' but yeah.
"If you're off or free at all before work today, you should eat and then get some proper clothes. I kinda wanted to take you out somewhere if that'd be okay." It wasn't really a question but still just enough request to not be an order either.
Finishing the last of his Oran juice, he'd get up and move to the fridge before asking, "Either of you want anything while I'm here?"
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 2, 2017 21:57:45 GMT -8
Sleep was good. Sleep was… necessary for most of life, heh. “Ah,” he answered briefly not one to pry further at the moment. He’d had enough skeletons dragged out of the closet and beaten with sticks for the day. Raising the coffee to his lips, he’d take a slow gulp. A yellow eye would flick sideways as Nik spoke, however. While he knew Nik’s general premise was to get Jazz out of the house, he had to wonder where they’d go. What they’d be up to.
As Nik got up, Orion paused for a moment before answering. “Nah I‘m good…” Pancakes, coffee, fruit hearts heh, that was enough for now. If these chairs were actually reasonably comfy, he was sure could lay back and go back to sleep on them Or he wished he could anyways.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Dec 2, 2017 22:10:37 GMT -8
The offer of food had Jazz brightening quite a bit as grinned at Nik. "Really? Sweet, thanks Nik~,"Jazz chimed, already getting up to heat up said pancakes in the microwave. Pressing a few buttons, the pancakes would be heated up in little time at all before he was digging into them. Mmmm, this was just what he needed and who the hell cared if they weren't fancy or anything like that. The next statement from Nik caught Jazz admittedly a little off guard. Where was this coming from? Doing something with Nik... well, it didn't sound all that bad but... well, it would let Orion rest more he guessed. Sigh. As long as he didn't have to talk about the shit that happened last night, it would be fine, right? Right. "Not going in. Had enough shit to deal with the past few days. They can deal for one day,"Jazz replied perhaps a little more spitefully than he had intended. Oh well, so what if he was bitter. As for the comment about some proper clothes... Looking down at his cargo pants and t-shirt, Jazz supposed he could at least grab a hoodie to cover his scars...hmm, maybe one of the fish-net under shirts would be better. Yeah, good enough unless they were going somewhere fancy. "There sum kinda dress code?" Jazz asked, taking another bite of his pancakes, " 'm fine, these 'r gewd,"he continued, trying his best not to just wolf the whole thing down.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 2, 2017 22:49:05 GMT -8
When Jazz said he was fine, Nik shrugged. "All right. Long as you're sure." He debated whether or not to change himself, then. His pants weren't really considered ideal in public, but honestly they were pure black, so who cared if the soft baggy silkscreen material marked them as 'pajamas'? They were comfy and looked fine at a distance. More heavily, he considered trying to dig out his version of the same shirt Jazz wore-- his white with a rainbow loading bar, which Nik insisted made it at least 50% gayer-- but even if that wouldn't risk trying too hard to be 'relatable', he wasn't even sure where he'd packed it, heh. Ah well.
They'd finish up breakfast uneventfully enough, and Nik would see Orion back to the room and grab his shoes and phone and wallet and such after. He smothered Orion in numerous more kisses and several warm wishes and reassurances, then left him to try to get some sleep (or at least relax watching various childhood movies). "Not sure if we'll be out long, but I'll try to make sure we come in quiet. I love you, darling~" Mmmm maybe another kiss or two or a dozen okay he swore he was pulling himself away now.
Once ready, he'd meet Jazz back in the living room. "So where do you wanna go, or wha'd'you wanna do? My treat."
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