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Post by Nikolai Laska on Nov 26, 2017 14:12:59 GMT -8
Orion. Orion no he would not... There was such a huge difference between 'being not rich anymore' and 'being in debt'. Or maybe even more accurately, 'choosing to convert monetary value into property value'?? Just--
He wouldn't get a chance to voice that, though, as Luke's sudden accusation had his muscles tightening, nerves flaring, and face brightly burning. "WH-N--!?? NO it's a--" If they'd been sitting around a table having a nice dinner and Luke mistook the nature of the ring, Nik would have simply explained, 'ah no, it's just a promise ring. We're not ready for that just yet but maybe someday'. Nice, simply, the the point.
Right now, he was kind of annoyed at Luke's presence. Like how dare you march into his temporary home sporting some kind of mutant superpowers you don't even bother explaining and yell at his boyfriend, especially when Nik had been able to get him to calm down so easily by just acknowledging his efforts and intentions in the slightest?? Weren't you supposed to be his 'best friend'? How were you this good at upsetting him, like what the fuck Luke?
So instead, Nik found himself spouting, "Why would you care if he did!? He's happy with me." In more of a muttered bite, he added, "Not to mention finally starting to get his life together." Was there a very passive aggressive implication about Luke in there? Yes, yes there was.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 26, 2017 14:31:25 GMT -8
Orion’s blood ran cold, and he scrambled to say something to Luke but ??? NIK??? Nik— NO WAIT DON’T— Orion’s gaze flicked to Luke’s. “It’s not—” he tried but failed say anything else. The hairs on the back of his neck had raised, and a feral instinct told him to shut up right then in a way he’d never experienced with Luke.
Luke stared— hard. For as forcibly calm as his face had become, the prehensile locks of his hair had started flailing again. Kill him. Nilly whispered fiercely. Destroy him. Luke took in a slow breath. He’s the one whose messing up Orion, enabling Orion, ruining Orion and Jazz.. Just strangle him… I can help. I promise it would be easy… It should have been jarring to hear these thoughts in his own head. It should have been upsetting to hear his own mind’s voice resound like that. It should have been so many different things that it just wasn’t right then.
“Because,” Luke finally snapped, his voice sharp and serrated. “Because..” Breathe, Luke, breathe. “I care!” Oh, well, obviously. “Because Orion and Jazz are important to me. Because I don’t want to see either of them messed up again! I don’t want it!”
Orion found he could breathe again. The hairs on the back of his neck had fallen once more, and he was left with this weird out of body feeling that he wasn’t entirely sure of what to do with.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Nov 26, 2017 14:59:25 GMT -8
"AND???" Nik asked rather quickly, crossing his arms in an almost judgmental fashion as he shifted his weight. "You think you're the only one? That I'm trying to commit to a 15-year mortgage because I like getting laid? I've been in love with this jackass for nine years--" He stopped a bit short and clamped his mouth shut for just a second as his blush burned a bit brighter, but he shook it off and went with it. "I-- know we weren't together that whole time but I never stopped. I know what he's done and of course I'm pissed about shit he keeps doing but I still-- I wanna spend my life with him. I wanna help him get better, I wanna help him find safe outlets when he needs them and take care of him and..."
He squeeze Orion's hand tighter as he recomposed himself, telling his eyes they needed to stop tearing up, then turned a colder look to Luke. "Why would you have a problem with that?" he spat, then shifted to a bit more neutral tone. "I'm not gonna stand here and pretend I'm invested in Jazz outside of how important he is to Orion but that's enough. He can stay with us as long as he needs or I suggested maybe going back and forth between our place and his own so he could ease into independence at his own pace. It's not like I haven't thought about him."
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 26, 2017 16:35:55 GMT -8
Luke’s teeth grit. The muscles in his thin frame tightened, but the whipping tentacles were gripped on his shoulders. “You haven’t known him for nine years!” he snapped back all the same. “You can’t say that when you weren’t there. You weren’t the one who had to take care of him when he was overdosed and sick! You weren’t the one who had to watch him go out into a bloody warzone and hope he came back safe. You weren’t the one who suffered for years knowing you couldn’t do anything to help him!” Luke’s voice broke, and he fell quiet. His eyes were stinging but of course Nilly’s wouldn’t actually tear up. He considered right then turning and leaving, but his legs felt like weights.
Orion was hurting. His chest hurt. His stomach hurt. His head hurt. He couldn’t actually tell if it was the fact the adrenaline was running off and he was feeling his actual body or if Luke’s words literally just hurt like that in particular but… He’d shrunken some. He didn’t… want to deal with this anymore. He just ….. “I’m sorry?!” his voice came out shrill and disjointed.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Nov 26, 2017 17:14:23 GMT -8
Nik's chest was tightening as well. Luke was.. right, but he was wrong. So very wrong, and... Ugh this was so stupid. An arm moved in front of Orion protectively as Nik took one step forward. "If he's that big a burden on you, back the fuck off and let someone who wants to take care of him do it." That.. probably wasn't the best thing to say right now.
"Do you have any idea?? How long it took me to feel connected to anyone outside my family? He was the only person for so long. And when we met again as much as he'd changed I still--" He swallowed hard, and fought the urge to shrink or look away, instead steeling himself to stare directly at whatever the fuck was going on with Luke's eye. "He's my soulmate, and I'll gladly do whatever I need to for him. So why don't you calm your tits-- or your hair or whatever the fuck is going on with that shit. And let me handle him, because apparently I've been doing a better job than you anyway." ... That was almost not terrible and then... Arceus he needed an external filter sometimes.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 26, 2017 18:05:01 GMT -8
…. Something visibly broke in Luke. While the sound of glass shattering would echo only in his own ears, the look in his human eye would change dramatically in turn. That’s not what I mean… Don’t contort my words… His lips trembled, but these words, these angry thoughts, would not reach the surface. I don’t know you. I don’t care about you. I don’t believe you. But the look in Nik’s eyes was strong and his words stronger and…. Luke wanted to believe soulmates were a thing but since when. And, of course, that last part just had him angry all over again. And hurt.
And?? “I don’t want to!” Oh, ok. That too. “I’m not going to just entrust him to you. I don’t know your story and I don’t care but I know him and …” He was trembling again but whether it was from anger or sadness he couldn’t tell. “I don’t trust that he isn’t just—“ Luke cut off, his gaze flicking from Nik to Orion instead. “You’re just….” A weak breath drew in and out. Oh…
Orion had looked away through all of it. Everything Nik was saying, everything Luke was trying to say… He just… couldn’t even at either of them. This was supposed to be good? This was… supposed to clear up problems???? He just….. Fuck. Why did he have to mess everything up apparently? He didn’t… want to upset Luke or mess with Jazz or ??? Anything??? He just wanted to be happy, damn it?
“I’m just… just what, Luke?” his voice came out shaky but audible. “I know… I know.. I know I … I threw people away… I did horrible things….. and I made everyone at home worry and … Arceus knows what else.. I know….” A sharp laugh suddenly escaped form Orion, and Luke physically fidgeted. Yellow eyes finally raised up and flickered over. “But you have to…. have to believe I’m trying……. I’m not just— I’m not just throwing people away or trading them in or… I’m….” Fuck he was laugh crying and it hurt and he hurt and fuck his ribs in particular.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Nov 26, 2017 18:35:18 GMT -8
He was sort of hoping someone would slip in an explanation for the hair thing if he mentioned it, but given all the circumstances he couldn't really blame them; it was a few rungs down on his own priority ladder right this moment. Don't trust that he isn't just-- Nik balked for a moment before an outright rage set in. Luke was probably lucky Orion started speaking just before Nik did, as it gave him a moment to get his tongue more in check, but then again maybe not, as the conclusions Orion jumped to only solidified how horrible what Luke was saying really was.
"Is this what you wanted?" he quickly hissed at Luke, then turned to put his hands on Orion, rubbing his shoulder gently. "Hey... Hey, I know babe." He looked to the couch and back, then coaxed him, "Let's... let's sit down." Whether Orion stayed frozen or let him guide him to the couch, he'd wrap an arm around him then and lean in to nuzzle against his shoulder. "I know how hard you're trying. We'll get through this."
He glared over at Luke then. "You know for someone who keeps talking about taking care of him, I'm starting to wonder whether you or the fights have done more damage tonight."
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 26, 2017 19:10:31 GMT -8
Fuck, he was tired. Why did his boss have him work this late anyway? It was the middle of the night and upkeep on Sinclair could certainly have waited til morning. Apparently not, not when red lights were flashing which meant every single pipe and piece of machinery no matter how small had to be checked. It had taken hours to make sure everything was fine when all it was was a short in the wiring of the red light. Really, sometimes Jazz wondered if his boss was a complete and utter imbecile. And this guy was supposed to be some kind of master? I need a drink. Maybe Orion would be alright with one beer or something stronger even. Maybe he could actually just sleep or try and focus on aura training. That was usually calming at least. Jazz had just climbed up the steps to the apartment and had been about to put his key in when he heard voices from the other side of the door. Luke's voice. What was he doing here? Why was he yelling? A deep breath would be taken before Jazz debated whether he wanted to even try and figure out what the hell had brought Luke over this late. Then Nik's voice joined in the yelling, then Luke's again and.... Orion was there. His voice...didn't sound right and it hurt. Teeth grit as a hand tightened on the door knob, jiggling it just slightly but hardly enough that anyone would notice. The last thing that Nik said though... damn if Jazz couldn't relate to some degree. If soulmates did exist, he... he had once thought he'd found his. Maybe it was foolishness but, the obvious attack on Luke, how defensive Luke was getting, the way Orion spoke... it was enough to make Jazz turn the nob and enter, all at once flinching back at the auras in the room. Damn, Nilly, chill... Why the hell did that Nihilego's aura have to be so intimidating? Orion's aura was upsetting and Nik's.... he still didn't have as good of a read on him to really care what his looked like. "Fuck..."Jazz murmured, rubbing his eyes as he walked to the kitchen just long enough to pull out a beer and take a long swig of it. Only after his tool bag was unceremoniously dropped on the floor did he look at the three people in the room, green eyes looked over at Orion first, then Nik, and Luke last. "What the hell's going on?" Jazz asked Luke before staring coldly at Nik briefly after hearing that last sentence as he walked in. His first impulse was to say 'fuck you' and move on but that would hardly be the best route to go. As tired as he was, Jazz was starting to piece together a few things. Orion looked like hell and had bandages wrapped around an arm, Nik had mentioned something about fights... It sounded like Orion had beat someone up and gone to Luke for help again. Dammit Orion. "What the hell happened to you, 'rion,"Jazz murmured. What heads do I need to knock together. Shit, what the hell did he just walk into. He didn't want to deal with this... whatever this was.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 26, 2017 19:35:35 GMT -8
Is this what he wanted? Is this what he wanted??? NO??? YES??? MAYBE??? Luke’s gaze flickered form Nik to Orion and then back again. His lips parted, and a couple words did come out in a series of mixed noises, but by the time Orion had sat down on the couch, Luke had fallen silent again. Even on the couch, Orion was laugh-sobbing abet quieter now. His thoughts had quieted but that left him with no logic or reason for his emotions. Yay. A pang of guilt did hit Luke, and Nik’s words only exemplified it. He bit back a word or two, his eyebrows knitting.
-- Wait a sec??? Luke had to take a double take on actually seeing Jazz walk to the kitchen. What?? When did??? Luke looked back at the front door and then inward at the livingroom again. How???
Oh, right on time, Jazz. Luke grimaced, raising a hand to rub his temple. You’re using your nails… Nilly whined, and Luke immediately stopped, lowering his hand again. A shaky breath drew into him, but damn it if he didn’t want to have to explain this to Jazz. He just… Ugh Orion why….This was not helping Nik’s argument any and UGH NIK WHY.
“Jazz—“ Luke tried and immediately lost what voice he had. It was so stark that he kind of just stood there for a second stunned. Oh… Guess not.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Nov 26, 2017 19:41:09 GMT -8
Wh-- o-okay then Jazz, just.. walk past like nothing's happening. Sure that's fine. Ugh why did he have to come home now, this was complicated enough. ...Nik sighed. Maybe he'd help Luke to calm the fuck down and go home until he could be reasonable? Nik could hope.
"Orion did something stupid and reckless and really sweet to earn us some money, and Luke's gone way past telling him it was stupid and reckless and dragging years' worth of guilt backlog into this to make him feel like shit. That's what's going on." He'd rub Orion's back gently still, hoping it was helping to calm him. "Also while we're explaining things if someone wants to fill me in on the hair thing that'd be fuckin' swell."
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 26, 2017 20:05:08 GMT -8
Jazz sighed and rubbed his eyes, not exactly knowing what to make of this. It was clear that the atmosphere was tense and he was really too tired and stressed to even attempt to understand what was going on beyond what he had surmised. Luke seemed speechless at this point which might've been a good thing, Jazz didn't really know. At any rate, at least he didn't have to worry about acting normal, not after having worked all fucking night. One thing was for sure, if his boss called him in tomorrow, Jazz was going to pretend like he'd lost his phone or... something. Nik's explanation earned a brief nod before Jazz covered his eyes with one hand. That helped to some degree but fuck if he could just turn off aura that would be so helpful right now. Especially where Nilly was concerned. "Sounds 'bout right,"Jazz murmured, still not looking at anyone right then. He was already starting to get a headache, fuck. Why did Orion have to go and do something like that? Still, if Orion looked like hell he prolly felt a heck of a lot worse. Whatever lecture Jazz could give wouldn't really have much of an impact, not in Orion's current state at least. "Everyone just, chill out. Pretty sure 'rion gets it. I get it, I do. But yer life is worth more than money, 'rion. Yer not worth less, a'ight?"Jazz said, sighing and waving a hand dissmissively, "Lecture over. 'n as fer the hair, Nik, meet Nilly, Nilly meet Nik. Wave, don't say 'nything. 's a Nihilego. 'n Ultra Beast we're tryin' to help git home,"he continued, taking another drink of his beer. That was the long and the short of it. Jazz just didn't care enough to even try and explain how they met it, especially after how it had affected him the last time he'd explained it to Orion. Still, even after that Jazz found himself looking over at Luke, "Ya a'ight?" he asked softly, it felt like Nik had been attacking Luke for no reason. Nik didn't understand after all, not the whole story or how much Luke had gone through. Orion had Nik to help him, but Luke... Nilly could only do so much and that didn't really count, at least not in Jazz's book.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 26, 2017 20:29:12 GMT -8
Luke grimaced. He wanted to cut in and ague that wasn’t it— but even he realized that was pretty much exactly it? Hhhhhh. He just….Hhhhhh he just…. A deep sigh escaped from him. Wait- what the fuck Jazz? Sounds about right. Whose side were you on??? Oh fucking???? “Jazz what—“ Luke didn’t even know what to say, but he was suddenly pissed all over again??? Don’t tell him to chill when he was chill???
JAZZ REALLY? “Can you let me explain that at least?” Luke quipped, irritated all over again. As if he had even tried to do so before then. And no clearly he wasn’t alright??
Orion, meanwhile, wasn’t even quite conscious of everything that was going on, not anymore anyways. He registered the rub of Nik’s hand on his back and the various sounds and voices, but he was kind of a little too sore and tired and upset and tired. And maybe he was still crying a little but yeah….
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Nov 26, 2017 23:09:30 GMT -8
Jazz almost came out decent in that initial reaction, but then... Ugh. UGH yeah Jazz he DID get it. Did you REALLY need to add your two cents worth of guilt trip in with it?
"Nilly?" he'd only briefly have time to sputter as Jazz explained. The fuck was a Nilly? The fuck was a Nihilego?? He felt like he'd seen that word before in passing but it wasn't fu-- ULTRA BEAST? "What the actual fuck." He was too appalled to be scared or confused or angry right now.
Can you let me explain that at least? "Yeah can you please?" Nik spat back. "And maybe while you're at it, explain just where you get off coming into our apartment harping on him for being reckless when you're harboring a fucking alien eldritch horror?" So his knowledge of Ultra Beasts was slim at best. Almost all from notifications around the League to be on guard for strange and almost-Legendary-strong Pokemon with info on who to contact if one was encountered to help get the beasts contained, with only the barest bones info about how they were extradimensional creatures or something like that. If Luke wasn't League himself, Nik would probably be reporting this as soon as possible, but as it was his faith in the system was strong enough to suspect Luke had it rather than someone else for a reason, even if he had little such faith in Luke personally.
... His thoughts went to the magic-science cookie he'd yet to consume and how he probably shouldn't be quite so eager to criticize Luke when he was indirectly-but-very-prominently helping him achieve something he'd wanted for so long, but honestly at this point Nik's spite levels were so high he almost wanted to go get it and shove it at Luke, tell him to get out, and do his best to avoid letting him have any effect in Nik's life ever again. ... He wouldn't (probably), but the petty thought was running through his head.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Nov 26, 2017 23:36:55 GMT -8
Luke's protest and the way he snapped at him had Jazz raising his hands in surrender. Yeah, fine, fine. Like he wanted to get dragged into this shit anyway. Maybe he should just go back to his room and try and sleep. Taking another sip of his drink, Jazz sighed and would have said something if Nik hadn't continued to attack Luke again. "Shut the fuck up,"Jazz growled, staring hard at Nik, "You have NO right. You don't fucking know what happened. It was the fucking league that sent Luke on that mission and never fucking showed up. Luke is not reckless,"he hissed, slamming the now empty bottle on the counter. Shit, when did his eyes start tearing? Why this? Hadn't he tried to avoid this? "Don't fucking say that about Luke. I l- trust him. I know he won't do anything reckless! He's a professor for Arceus' sake!"Jazz seethed, his voice rising as more tears fell, blurring the world before him. Fuck Nik. Fuck this mess. Fuck everything. Why the hell did everything have to be so complicated? Wasn't he over this? Wasn't he supposed to just be friends now? Fuck this.
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Nov 27, 2017 1:40:31 GMT -8
“Can you not??” Luke snapped a both of them. He didn’t need Nik snapping at him, and he didn’t need Jazz’s ill-reasoned defense of him. He didn’t need Nilly’s horrendous suggestions either, but at least those were contained in his head. He took in a sharp breath, trying and failing to steady himself.
“I—“ he slowed, calmed, became a little less forward and a little more matter-of-fact. “The League contacted me to assess the source of a number of wild Pokemon hoarding up and acting erratic. Apparently, the closest Gym Leader was out.” Was that Nik? Yes, yes that was Nik. Or Akira, or Kiran, or that Dragon guy who Luke was pretty sure was actually an urban legend in himself. “The source of it was Nihilego….” That crazy eye of Luke’s finally closed and almost seemed to pull up from his skin for a second before falling back again and remaining closed. “The League knows,” he quipped. “But Nihilego is blind in our world, and I made a promise to it to be its senses until I can get it back.” That was only the half of it but the more logical, less emotional half at least.
Orion, meanwhile, sort of pipped up again with a weirdly dry laugh. “Yes because you always have to help the things that can’t help themselves.” Luke’s face contorted, and the color left it. He… didn’t even… really know what to say to that considering Orion but??? ORION????
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