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I can't help it, I'm a babbling idiot. Please kiss me quick, 'cause I need to feel it~ |
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Nov 30, 2017 17:17:42 GMT -8
Oh... Oh, thanks for.. totally dispelling any questions there. Okay then. Nik glanced at the knife again as Marshmallow pointed it out, and... gratefully, to the scars visible when Jazz mentioned 'old habits'. He pressed his thumb and finger to his eyes and rubbed. Cutting was... a lot better than it could have been here, huh. But ugh.
He.. wanted to help, and knew Orion would, but... but he looked so tired, and Nik was so tired, and... Even Jazz had gotten in really late. "It's been a really long day.." he sighed. He shuffled across the room and picked the knife up, finding himself staring at the blade for a few seconds. He tried to imagine wanting to use it, but it just made him nauseous. As much as he wanted to suffer sometimes, inflicting sharp pain sounded so... aijwfoa eeuughh. Tearing his eyes away, he mumbled, "I'm gonna take this." Not that he didn't think Jazz could find another easily but... yeah.
"Do you think... you'd be okay if we all just... go to bed? We'll probably all feel a bit better with some sleep..." He hoped. He just... needed to curl up with Orion and run his fingers through his hair and watch him fall asleep. But... ugh he didn't want Jazz to think they'd just be ditching him, either.
... "Maybe once we're all a bit clearer-headed, we could.. sit down and talk? ..Would that be okay?"
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Dec 1, 2017 1:26:39 GMT -8
Upon hearing her name, Marshmallow looked at Orion hopefully. He would solve this, right? She had done a good job, hadn't she? The threat of sorts had the Wigglytuff's ears going down as a sorrowful sound was heard. She hadn't meant to... just... Feeling Orion ruffle her head had a small delighted sound escaping Marshmallow as she beamed up at Orion. Yes, she'd done a good job after all~! Jazz didn't move even after she heard Orion talk to Marshmallow. Still, for as much as the motherly Wigglytuff annoyed him sometimes, Jazz was glad she'd stopped him. He... wouldn't know how to face Luke if he showed up with bandages the next day after Luke had already yelled at Orion for being stupid. Maybe I should stay home tomorrow. Simply put, it was a way to avoid Luke, a way to try and give him space and try and shove the pain away. If only it were that simple. Jazz heard Orion's apology and shifted so that he could at least look at him. " 'm jis glad yer alright,"Jazz murmured, combing his fingers through Kovu's mane as he spoke. He didn't need to say anything more than that for Orion to understand. Seeing those bandages, hearing Luke yell... it only brought back those old fears all over again. If Orion hadn't been careful... he might not have seen him again. That thought hurt more than anything else and Jazz was finding it hard to breathe. A shaky breath was taken before he heard Nik speak and focused on him. Great. Now he knew too. This night couldn't possibly get any worse, could it. Rather than another lecture however, Nik simply picked up the knife and said he was going to take it. Jazz was more relieved to hear that than Nik could realize at that moment. As raw as he was, Jazz knew that even with Kovu there, the temptation was just too strong. He was too weak and in too much pain to trust himself not to try again after they left. But with Kovu practically on top of him, Jazz wasn't about to get up any time soon. Much less to get another knife with everyone watching him. The question that followed had Jazz staring blankly at Nik. Would he be ok? No, not by a long shot. Sleep did sound good though. He could at least try and rest some. "Not really, no,"Jazz murmured, looking back down at Kovu as he spoke, "Sleep sounds good though. I was tired when I came home, 'n I'm exhausted now." That was true enough at least. And with Kovu's reassuring warmth, maybe sleep wouldn't be that far off. Heh, he could hope at least. "I kin try." That was all he could promise right then. As tired as he was, it wasn't always easy to fall asleep. Hopefully it wouldn't him that night though. Arceus, he was tired.
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‘Cause these words are knives that often leave scars The fear of falling apart |
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 1, 2017 7:01:25 GMT -8
Just glad you’re alright. Orion almost wanted to laugh. He was… far from alright right then, but if ‘alright’ encompassed being alive, then yeah. He was alive. Close enough for now. Nik’s sigh had Orion sighing in turn, more an echo than a response. He was… so tired. He might have asked something like Nik had but was beat to it while trying to think of things to say. Still, Jazz’s initial response had him flinching. No??? What was that supposed to—
Orion sighed-laighed as Jazz clarified. “I think we all are.” Oh, tears were coming to the corners of his eyes again, and he wasn’t exactly sure why. A hand reached up and an index finger and thumb rubbed both eyes. He nodded briefly at Jazz’s last few words. “Keep Kovu and Marshmallow out for the night,” he answered, lowing that hand again. He might have had Mr. Fish out right then, but they had battled quite a lot as well, and while they hadn’t sustained the level of injury he had and could be fixed up by a Pokemon center visit in the morning, he didn’t want to burn them out any more than they had already been.
He…. Considered walking back out of the room now but was caught between thoughts of ‘is there anything else that needs to be said’ and also the exhaustion of thinking about walking any further anyway. Ugh. If prompted to, he would, but otherwise he’d stand there for a few extra seconds at least.
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I can't help it, I'm a babbling idiot. Please kiss me quick, 'cause I need to feel it~ |
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 1, 2017 12:58:39 GMT -8
Nik tensed a bit at Jazz's initial reaction, but then relaxed. Yeah.. That was fair. By 'okay' all he'd really meant was... yeah, heh... And it looked like Jazz would be at least that okay, especially if he listened to Orion. And as much as part of Nik still tried to say, 'no, you need to try to comfort him', it was clear the Pokemon could do a far better job of that, thankfully for everyone.
"We'll see you in the morning, then," he said with a brief nod. He'd hesitate a second himself, but then take Orion's hand to lead him back to the door. As a last thought occurred, he'd look over his shoulder to Jazz and offer, "Stay safe, kiddo..." Then led Orion back out and toward their room.
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Post by Jazz Johnson on Dec 1, 2017 21:03:14 GMT -8
Orion's inital response had Jazz nodding. Yeah, it had been late when he'd gotten home after a long, stressful, irritating day at work. Who knew how long Luke had been over before he'd gotten there and well, Nik looked tired too. The command of sorts to keep the Pokemon out was met with a sigh. Kovu was a given, there were nights when the only way Jazz could relax was if the Luxray was there. "...K..."Jazz replied weakly, snuggling up to Kovu a bit more as he spoke. There wasn't really much to be said after that, but it seemed both Orion and Nik were ready to sleep as well. It was Nik that eventually led Orion outta the room after wishing him goodnight and telling him to stay safe. That... wasn't something Jazz had expected to hear from Nik and he found himself tearing up as a result. A shaky breath would be taken before Jazz could even try to speak. "Night... 'n thanks, Nik,"Jazz murmured back, shifting to get under the covers thereafter, still snuggled close to Kovu. Marshmallow waved goodnight to Orion and Nik before they left the room and stood there, not entirely sure what she should do. It was only after Jazz prompted her that she joined him on the bed, snuggling close to try and be reassuring and because it felt nice. Initially, Jazz was worried he'd simply lay there, tormented by the evening's events and his own pain. Fortunately, his exhaustion trumped everything else and Jazz managed to fall asleep almost as soon as Nik and Orion left.
It would be almost afternoon before Jazz finally stirred, stretching a bit only to be met with a whining growl from Kovu. How long had he slept? What time was it even? Reaching for his phone, Jazz swore when he saw the time moment before the phone blinked off. Battery's dead. Figures. He was so tired last night he forgot to change it. Oh well, it'd be a good excuse to skip work for the day. Jazz didn't feel like doing much of anything anyway, not after last night. "C'mon, Kovu, gerroff,"Jazz murmured, already trying to shove the big Luxray off him. Kovu grumbled and complained, but eventually got up, yawning and going over to paw at the door. Jazz would make him wait only long enough to change into some more comfortable clothes, namely black cargo pants and the first t-shirt he could pry out of his dresser drawers. Normally he'd grab a hoodie too, but considering Nik already knew about his scars, he decided not to. It wasn't like he was going anywhere today anyway, at least he wasn't planning to. After grabbing one of his studded chokers, Jazz opened the door, followed by a bleary eyed Wigglytuff and Kovu who was already bounding towards whoever happened to be out at the moment. " 'ey, cut it out, Kovu,"Jazz murmured, stopping him before he pounced on whoever it happened to be. Instead, the Luxray would brush up against them in greeting, nearly pushing them over in the process. Ehh, you couldn't win every battle. Marshmallow would scold them before Jazz could, but he didn't really mind, the only thing on his mind right then was coffee. There had to be a pot made, right?
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‘Cause these words are knives that often leave scars The fear of falling apart |
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 1, 2017 22:43:29 GMT -8
“Night, Jazz,” was the last thing Orion’d say before following Nik out the door. Rather than the bedroom, he’d find himself led to the bathroom. For a few moments, he blinked confused, but as realization came to him again he stepped into the bathroom. The noise of the faucet releasing water that would steadily warm had him involuntarily groaning, but still he’d start to shift out of his clothes revealing the mess of bruising that was there.
The smash back into the bars and the press of that tank of a man had done the worst damage by far. The actual bars themselves had left imprints in the form of darker bruises while his chest was actually more of just a sea green stain. The smaller hand-shaped bruises on his neck were still forming but possible to be seen now. Ugh fuck that guy in particular (literally maybe). Fuck his boyfriend too.
Slowly with Nik’s help, he’d get into the bath sort of melting as the heat touched him. His arm was somewhat disjointedly hanging out of said bath then but… oh well.
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I can't help it, I'm a babbling idiot. Please kiss me quick, 'cause I need to feel it~ |
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 1, 2017 23:04:06 GMT -8
Nik slowly helped Orion out of his clothes while the water ran, but as he took in the sight of the various bruises, whatever feelings he'd suppressed in order to take to Orion's defense in front of Luke came rushing back to the surface and threatened to blow right out of him like a geyser. He held back, but barely, biting his metaphorical tongue and actual lip.
He wanted to comment, but couldn't find the energy or the words. Instead, his fingers would just slow and linger over some of the worse bruises as he helped Orion get washed up. At least until his eyes finally caught the bruising around his neck. He was sure he must have 'seen' it multiple times now, but there was so much going on and only now did it finally register. That was... a lot heavier on one side than the other, almost like... but? but....
Nik's hand moved up, touch light and gentle, but his thumb slipped over the smaller side and his fingers over the larger. The bruises.. suggest a larger hand but it was... still more than close enough to make his stomach turn, and as his hand slipped back down to Orion's chest he looked to him with almost pleading eyes.
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‘Cause these words are knives that often leave scars The fear of falling apart |
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 1, 2017 23:16:01 GMT -8
Once in the bath, Orion… didn’t really want to move. The water was warm enough to have his muscles finally relaxing, but with that came a realization that it would be that much harder to get up and out after. He’d… worry about that in a bit and just sort of relax down into the water for now.
Nik’s touches were just light enough that Orion wouldn’t feel anything from them (or was it that he was hurting so much that it had gone beyond his pain threshold? Hah). As Nik’s thumb slipped over his neck, Orion gulped. He wouldn’t flinch, wouldn’t pull back, wouldn’t do any of that but… Nik could probably feel that reaction before his hand had moved.
“I….” Orion looked at Nik at a loss for what to say. Yellow eyes flickered away from Nik, and a small sigh escaped from Orion. “I…heh… got him back really good for it…” he spoke weakly, tiredly, painfully. “He… ah slammed my head pretty good though, fuckin’ asshole…” He was muttering now, just barely above the tones that were audible.
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 1, 2017 23:31:32 GMT -8
Oh... Oh.. Nik didn't know why such a simple comment hit him so hard, but here he was, fighting tears. He was too tired. It was too late. It wouldn't do any good to berate him now, and Nik just spent all his energy defending him. He was so grateful for what it would mean, too, he was.
But right now, he just hurt. He hurt and he wanted to break. He... wanted Orion to break with him. How dare... how dare this jackass be so tough and act like this was practically nothing? How dare he come home like this and be nothing but kind of drained? Just as quietly, he muttered, "You're a fucking idiot..."
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‘Cause these words are knives that often leave scars The fear of falling apart |
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 1, 2017 23:42:20 GMT -8
A pained note, more a cough than a laugh or cry, escaped from Orion at that. “I know,” he answered slowly looking back to Nik. For a moment, he’d barely managed a smile, but that fell through right after. “No one’s ever accused me of being smart….” Ow, was that his rib or what was left of his pride? He actually couldn’t tell. “I laid down in this tub and …. Don’t even think I’ll make it out…” Hah… that was funny, right? Right? Man, he felt too delirious and …. Whatever else…. To even find a good sarcastic comment to come up with next. A soft sigh escaped from Orion after that. “Sorry….” Well, he’d said that plenty of times today, might as well make sure Nik knew he was sorry too. For everything, ever. Always.
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I can't help it, I'm a babbling idiot. Please kiss me quick, 'cause I need to feel it~ |
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 2, 2017 1:12:49 GMT -8
Nik bit the inside of mouth, almost wanting to berate and correct Orion about how bright and witty he could be but... ugh. He wasn't in the mood to praise him. .. Yeah he was? No, that took too much effort. Fuck why did this jackass make him like this. Mia got hurt a lot worse than this-- or at least a lot more permanently-- and it was so easy to stay calm and collected with her? Maybe just because he didn't know for certain her own recklessness caused it, but. ugh. Even then somehow he just... Orion.
"I'll pick you up if I have to." He would... not make it terribly far with him, but... still. He could at least get him on his feet, and possibly make it to the bed even if his arms would still feel it tomorrow. After that, he'd just kind of... focus on cleaning him up and do his best to ignore the bruises for the most part.
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‘Cause these words are knives that often leave scars The fear of falling apart |
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 2, 2017 5:56:35 GMT -8
Orion’s lips closed, and he gulped again. Oh…. Yeah.
A good portion of Orion was unscathed. He had scraped knees and a couple new bruises on his lower extremities, but most of the damage was seen on and around his torso area. After a little bit, the water would start to get cold and Orion more restless in turn. He’d ask Nik to at least pull him from the tub, but once he was there, he could stand on his own a bit better now. He’d dry off very briefly with Nik’s help and then started to their bedroom.
He really didn’t want to put on clothes at all and settled for folding under the bed sheets and cover top. It was warm enough even if his hair was still went. Folding into Nik, he’d close his eyes hoping sleep would just snatch him up and away from the situation for a little bit.
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I can't help it, I'm a babbling idiot. Please kiss me quick, 'cause I need to feel it~ |
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 2, 2017 7:34:34 GMT -8
Nik wouldn't say much if anything for the rest of the night. He helped Orion when prompted, turned the lights out behind them, and wound up debating for a few seconds whether to undress when Orion fell into bed. He quickly decided against it; even if it should be clear neither of them were vaguely in the mood, he didn't wanna give that impression or make it any easier for things to potentially happen in the morning, and it wasn't like there was much difference at this point comfort-wise.
So he crawled under the blanket on his side and curled up... but when Orion cuddled up to him, he sighed softly, then shifted to give him one soft, silent kiss on the head before settling back in. He did his best to turn off his brain for the night; right now, he just wanted to enjoy Orion's warmth.
Nik was both surprised and not surprised at all to wake first. It was so rare for Orion to sleep through the night, but as exhausted as he'd been and on as many levels... Nik was glad he was now; he really needed it. He just wished he could savor it properly. ...Well, he was still pissed, sure, but he could try regardless.
As such, he'd grab his phone from the night stand (and double check that the knife he'd taken from Jazz was still there where he left it), grab some earbuds from the drawer, and put on some music for a bit. He tried browsing the net at first, two, but after a few minutes found he wasn't feeling up to reading or watching anything really and just settled in to focus on listening and feeling the rise and fall of Orion's breath next to him.
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‘Cause these words are knives that often leave scars The fear of falling apart |
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Post by Orion Alim-Verdi on Dec 2, 2017 7:43:27 GMT -8
Orion had dreamed vacant dreams. Wisps of thoughts and memories came and went, but for the most part he slept deeply. It would be almost an hour after Nik had woken that Orion would start to stir, a soft mumble escaping him at first before both eyes flickered open. He looked around dazed for a few seconds before zeroing in on Nik. “M-…” Oh, he didn’t even realize his throat would be this sore, but he guessed it made sense. Seeping further into the bed, he pulled the blankets over his head and uttered a lower note, a vague whine and groan all mushed into one. He would not be able to go back to sleep, but that didn’t mean he had to get up right now right?
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I can't help it, I'm a babbling idiot. Please kiss me quick, 'cause I need to feel it~ |
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Post by Nikolai Laska on Dec 2, 2017 8:01:14 GMT -8
Oh? Morning, sleepyhead, some part thought vaguely affectionately. It was too overshadowed by other things to come out just now but... yah. He shifted a bit to look and watched Orion seep back into bed, but said nothing. Nik... was actually feeling kind of stubborn about this; he didn't want to be the one to break the silence.
He wanted... no? He didn't want an apology; he'd apologized profusely. He didn't want.... errant apologies he guessed. He didn't want Orion feeling sorry for himself or thinking he was just an all-around fuck-up. That was it. He wanted an apology but a very specific one and he wanted something actually done about it this time. And also for Orion to understand his problem without him having to say it directly apparently but... ha..
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